OCF. was great.

I love discussing about Jesus, about the Bible. I love hearing other's testimony. But, personally, I feel that I still have trouble sharing things to others. It has nothing to do with others. It's just I'm such an introvert person and I prefer keeping some things to myself. Like, I don't even share things to my family, or even to my closest friends. It feels good to have secrets between me and myself. LOL.

Anyway.... we were talking about faith still. And today we were talking about faith and actions. This BS session really got me thinking of how my actions reflect my faith. And I tot back to my actions back then. About my addiction. About all the things that I've done that in God's eyes is unworthy. I realised how much I've let God down with every single sin I've commit.

This session by far, has been the most eye opening for me. It seriously got me thinking about serving in worship. I didn't share about this with my cell because one of my cell members is in the worship committee. So yeah. I decided not to share with them.

Then, we continue talking about spritual gifts and speaking in tongues. Honestly, I haven't really have a talk about speaking in tongues. Like it never really cross my mind. It never really bother me in a huge way. But u know, sometimes I see other Christians speaking in tongues during worship or prayer and it felt like there's something I'm missing out on and of course, the typical question "why?". Why do they have it and I don't?? Isit because I'm less of a Christian than them?? Isit because their faith level is greater than me??? But, Chee Kai reassured us that not being able to speak in tongues doesn't make us less of a Christian.

Also, having Chee Kai in the group is very very helpful. Btw, Chee Kai is our advisor and also a Bible College lecturer. I feel that putting me with Chee Kai is intentional. I dunno if my brother played a part in it or something. But definitely, I learned alot from Chee Kai. I like his stories, his testimonies. Everything he said or shared is something I've never ever thought before. He just brings in alot of new ideas and questions that got me thinking.

I've paid for Easter Camp which is next week. I am excited. Ok... sleep time.