I promise I'll start M and C assignment tmrw. Too much work, too little time. The uni forgot we only have 24 hours per day.

I'm seriously contemplating of getting the bag from Country Road. First things first, save up!!!! But I've been saving up alot. Yes? But wait... there could be sales anytime soon!! Anytime soon.

My fasting facebook is going great. 3 more weeks left, u can do it!!! I can do it!!

Yes! US Open 08!! MUST WATCH!! NO EXCEPTION!!

So, today at OCF, it was international night. Every cell group was assigned a country, and the country we had was Indonesia. Obviously, as our assistant CG leader Glenda is Indo. Anyway, it was a fun night. We made a skit and Jono made us sing the Indo Anthem. LOL. Super hilarious.

I gave $50 to OCF mission. And I am very very proud of myself!! :) Since I started working, I learnt about something that is money and materialistic goods isn't important. Before that I was always complaining about not having enough money, I want this that bla bla bla. But now, working has changed my perspective of money. I always thought money would make me happy but no, it hasn't, infact I'm more stress out than before.

Then, we had to pray for all the nations like Indonesia, India, HK, Japan and MALAYSIA!!! When it comes to Malaysia, I just realised how much Malaysia has changed. Racism is still a HUGE issue!! I mean from the surface, Malaysia looks so peaceful, everyone likes each other, but deep down, racism is very much a huge issue. Different races are fighting over everything, government, political parties are fighting over power and superiority. I mean what happen to the Rukunnegara that we take pride alot?? (I still remember :)). WHAT HAPPEN??

On the way home, we were discussing about it, and someone mention whether Malaysia will eventually split, like Korea spliting into North and South and looks like we're heading towards it. Malays are still (I supposed) very jealous of the Chinese. The government is still prioritising bumiputera. Chinese are still presumably treated as 2nd class citizens. I mean no one talks about this, everyone just goes about with their daily things, ignoring these signs that Malaysia is no longer a united country. What happen to the pride of unity that we share??

The thought that Malaysia will split, maybe East and West Malaysia? just scares me alot. Even for someone like me, who has lived in Australia for close to 4 years feels very worried about this. Families will split, the lifestyle, living standards, economy will go down hill.

Clearly, history is repeating itself, don't we ever learn from past mistakes?

So friends, please pray for this country that has been built very intricately. Pray for unity, pray for wisdom for our leaders, pray that difference will be put aside, pray for the difference races and cultures.

And.... Selamat Merdeka!! :) Wuhhoo.. lets party in Australia!!

Today was a bit frustrating, a bit disappointing, a bit relief, a bit happy, a bit lost, a bit tired, a bit anxious, a bit of everything.

Two test, Bus Stats was surprisingly easy and to my astonishment short. My assignment was a disappointment. Studied for Accounting after that for the 6.00 Accounting mid. My brain was dead after the Bus Stats test, I couldn't think, I couldn't focus on Accounting. My mind was blank. I still have to study Receivables, which after two years of studying Accounting, I STILL don't get that topic.

Anyway, I was at breaking point, I wanted to just give up and do nothing. Seriously, at that point, my mind was about to give up. But my body was still alive. I took some time out with Gloria Jeans coffee, and just sat at the uni park and look at the sky, the grass, the magnificent H Building, people lying on the grass... etc. Went back to the library and start all over again.

And low behold I got it!! The test was alright. It wasn't so bad as I thought it will be. Really thank God for this. :)

Prefect bag

I've found my prefect bag.

I've been searching for the prefect bag since forever, a bag which is large enough for my uni things. But still looks classy and fashionable. Coz large bags either look like grocery bags or granny bags which is another word, not very appealing. But! I've found my ideal bag. I love it sooo very much.

Okay... story time.

Last Saturday, on the way to Vodaphone Arena for the Youth Alive thing in the city, we had to stop in Camberwell to change trams (since we went by tram). So, Sarah and I went of the 75 tram and was headed towards the 70 tram stop. And low behold, a Country Road shop was right beside the 70 tram stop and in the display window was "the bag". And I mean "the bag" And it immediately caught my attention. Yes, I love love love love love love love the bag.

It's red in colour, but comes in white as well. And it's an oversized tote bag. Normally u think oversized like excessively large and looks like a grocery bag, but it doesn't look as big to me. It's got pockets and buckles in front, which is very funky. I love it!! We wanted to go in to check the price, incase I blow my budget and have a closer look at the bag. But by then the shop was closed. Then, unsatisfied, I went home and check the Country Road online website and low behold, the bag is part of the Spring Collection 08. And cost, $99. And the cheapest of all the bags on sale at Country Road. $99? Expensive? Yes?

The thing is the bag reflects light, and it has a shiny appearance. And red? I'm just abit scared it's too bright for my liking and won't suit any of my clothes. But the online catalogue showcase the bag with different styles, casual wear and working wear, so I won't go wrong, or so I think.

I WANT IT!! I'm even excited just blogging about this.

Please check it on here and please comment about it.
"THE BAG" Fourth slide, right section of the Country Road catalog

Friday
OCF. I almost didn't made it, but I am very glad I did. Ps. Alan, forgot which church he was from, came and spoke about "Mission". He showed us photos and clips of people in Africa and Ethiopia. It was eye-opening to see the state these people lived in. And it really renewed my commitment towards God's Kingdom that is going on mission. Ps. Alan said that we, young people have the potential to spread God's word and look after nations that have been neglected by the rest of the world. Mission has always been my goal in my spritual walk, a long term goal.

Saturday
Work, not bad, not great. Waking up after 5 hrs of sleep to work is not great.

Youth Alive was awesome!! So glad that I went with Sarah, it was a great time. I almost changed my mind and stayed home coz I was really really tired after work, but somehow I had energy left.

The Youth Alive band was awesome!! The packed auditorium was quite overwhelming. Another band called Group 1 Crew played. That band was really good!! Their music are hip hop/Rap songs. The music was very catchy and very very nice, for a first time listener like me. I was immediately hook in. The message was very powerful as well. It suited young people. And I am amazed with the number of people who responded with the message, seas of young people gave their lives to Jesus that very night.

One of their hit songs, Forgive Me, my fave. It was also featured in the drama One Tree Hill as a scene background music.






Another, Love is a Beautiful Thing, very jazzy.





And another, Can't Go On.

Buzziness

Sorry guys for blocking my blog, I had to stop random people visiting my blog and putting inappropriate comments here, as in spamming.

This week have been super busy. Been so busy that it sucks a lot out of u, my mood has been going up and down, I've been ignoring everybody. No mood to talk to my parents, I blocked out their nagging. No time to catch up with friends. Since I started my new job, I had to change my routine. Work takes a lot out of you. And now I have another extra shift on Mon, which means I'm working 13 hours a week. I also find that I'm so tired after work and basically waste the rest of the day doing nothing but sleep. So, yeah, I've kinda neglected my studies a bit, which is a worry to me.

Also, I've stopped going to lectures and I don't even feel guilty. Lectures are useless and pointless. The lecture slides are post on the net and the lecturer basically read out of the slides so tell me, is it pointless or not. So, instead of wasting two hours in boring lecture theater, not paying attention to anything, I could use the two hours to read and summarize the textbook chapters, as well as finishing the questions in the chapters.

But one thing that I'm proud of is in the midst of all this busyness, I still put out a few minutes to spend some time with God. But sometimes, I feel guilty if I don't attend OCF every Friday ( A Christian Club), I feel very disappointed at myself. But seriously, I am really incapable of fitting another thing in my weekly schedule. I feel so exhausted after a busy week and I just want to come home and rejuvenate. I know that God will understand, but I still feel guilty. I feel selfish, like I'm replacing God with something else. I don't wish to do that, replacing God, but my week is already very packed now. I barely have any "me" time anymore, my day is always around the clock, running here there, doing this and that for other people.

But all this have drawn me closer to God. In all this rush, I find peace in God and I'm growing in confidence facing everyday life.

I'll see how things go.

Hi!!!

OMG!!

Guess what? I'm going to Youth Alive free!! Sarah got free tickets from LightFM (a christian radio station). Not just one ticket, but FOUR!! FOUR ticket!!

We're going next Saturday. Damn happy and excited!! :)

Annie's party today. Yay!! Get to meet everyone from school that I havent seen in ages.

The only thing that stands between me and freedom is this stupid management essay. Gosh.. once I think of it, I just feel so argh!! stress!! I mean management, I don't see myself managing people in the future so studying it is abit pointless really. And plus, it's nothing to do with my degree so I'm abit lazy doing them. I mean if it was related to my double degree I might be more motivated to complete them. But no, it's just another stupid core subject that the uni requires us to do.

I even took a day off work this coming Mon just to get the essay done. Starting to feel sick of work, sometimes I like it, sometimes I don't. But relatively ok. I'm prepared to pay someone to do my essay for me. Don't think that's plagiarism. :p

If only that essay would just fade away and disappear...... If only....

Phew... Bus Stats done!!! After a couple of technology issues with excel, excel is seriously mind-killing and very frustrating. But, relief to get that over and done with.

Okay.. so for the past 2 weeks or so, I've had this huge dilemma on whether to go to the Aa Cocktail Party or not. But I've decided to spend that $20 on the Youth Alive which is next Saturday. I've never been to the Concert before and would be great to go. :)

I was at Knox to get Annie's pressie for tmrw. I got her a red bow wallet. Annie likes girly, cutey stuff but I thought that since she's turning 19, I got her something practical and "grown-up" but also has a girly twist to it, the red bow!!

I've just realized its the weekend when the salesperson said: "have a good weekend". I think weekends to me now don't feel like weekends anymore. I'm busy with work, church, and study. I don't think I have any "my" time anymore.

3 days to complete Management essay, which I haven't started at all!!

Assignments.

why why why WHY the f do we need assignments???????????

Can someone tell me WHY?????

Assignments are ruling my life. If assignments could kill, I would be dead by now.

Help!! I'm trap!! Assignments are bullying me!! :(

I will be happy if I survive to week 9.

Someone once told me (I won't say who) that u're more stress because u go to Monash. Hmm... It's a thought to ponder. Monash, prestigious Business school, maybe it is true. Btw, that person goes to Melbourne Uni. I thought Melb people are more stress??? I guess not.

And there goes the Monash vs Melbourne debate....

So lazy... Need to finish assignment. Procrastination is killing...... seriously depressing.

Can I take the week off??

I don't feel like doing anything, just staying at home and watching the Olympics. Yup, that's right, Olympics has caught up with me. I thought that with the Olympics on TV, I might get some homework or studies done, since it's 24/7 Olympics. But, I was more glued than ever to the TV set. Aussies are not too bad!! Go Aussies!!!

Annie's b'day party next Saturday. I need to get something for her.

I missed the start of the 2008 Beijing Olympics. Watching bits on the news, it wasn't so bad, it was actually very very good. Might watch it on youtube later. The lighting of the cauldron was spectacular.

I was at OCF meeting. My new cell is awesome!! There's this guy named Brian, after he knew Bernard was my brother, he's like, " Oh okay, my best friend's sister". Haha. I don't know what he meant, disappointment or astonishment, I don't know. LOL. And from now on I am known as quote, "Bernard's sister". I have a name okay?? Also, I realised I'm taller than most people, even the guys. LOL. Even girls in heels are shorter than me. :) I feel proud of my height now. :)

The following day was Olympics frenzy. I was at work and everyone was talking about how awesome the whole thing was.

Assignments.

Today was okay. Infact, I don't think I like today.

Stupid Accounting questions are very frustrating. I hate the topic of Receivables. I can't get the freaking thing to balance. I dunno what the heck is wrong, I've checked again and again but no, it still isn't right. And Alka, plz don't brush it in. I don't need that right now.

It's these things that make me think if Accounting is the right one. I mean what if I don't balance the figures, that would be awful. Having to go to work everyday and not make the figures balance. Every day would suck if none ever balance!! Thinking about it makes me feel so scared. I can't even do a simple question, what would happen if I'm faced with a real-life situation, with real money figure?? I don't want to cause someone to lose money because of my inability!! Yeah, sometimes I forget that the figures are money figures. Kinda scary to think that they are cold hard cash.

Also, sometimes I wonder if I can cope with the demand and high expectation. The Accounting world is so much different then theory wise. It's fascinating but looks dangerous at the same time.

Someone asked me why Accounting and I couldn't give a decent answer. It's more like a gut feeling, following ur guts kinda thing. But, I can only hope that things turn out well.

Can I skip uni tmrw?? Really don't feel like going tmrw. Thinking about accounting tute tmrw freaks me out. Dunno if freak is the right word tho, our tutor is soooo demanding. She expects everyone to speak up in class, and I can't be bothered. Actually, I'm more afraid of her than the subject.

Work today didn't go well either. I am so fed up right now. I'm just going to go to sleep now.

Today was like any other Tuesday. Nothing much happen. Finally borrowed the money and capital book from Aun Shiang and photocopied the tute questions. Speaking of which, I have a presentation this Friday, SHOOT!

Good news, dad's got a job. He just signed up to teach at Taylor's College here in Melbourne. Dad will be teaching maths. So happy for dad. He's also doing a few tutoring here and there. Just very grateful that they gave this opportunity for dad, given that alot of people, younger and fresher than dad are applying for this job. And I'm sure dad would enjoy working there given that most of the students are International Students. Really thank God for this blessing.

My work has been changed from Mon to Wed. I've got uni in the morning and I don't know if I can cope with going to uni and then turning up for work in the arvo. Thinking of coming back home straight after uni to rest and prepare for work but mum said better to stay in the Mt Waverley Library to finish up some school work. Good idea to use the extra time to finish up with some homework then I won't feel guilty when working.

I hope I don't burn out.

Very piss! Borrowed the wrong effing book!!!!!!Ugh...

My plan to read through the Money and Capital book and make notes in the weekend which is not happening coz I borrowed the incorrect book. Should have followed the lecture's recommendation reading list. Now, i cannot catch up on Money and Capital reading, as well as the homework. And my presentation is next Friday. My plan was to read through the book and prepare the tute question.

So piss for borrowing the wrong book!!! :( Oh well, I guess more Acnt for me to do. :)

Today at uni.

Today was better than I expected. I hate Fridays. It's not TGIF for me. Every single time, I thought Thurs is Fri and Fri is Sat. So... when reality hits that Friday is Friday, it sucks big time.

Money and Capital was alright. The tutor was surprisingly nice to us, his accent is quite annoying but nevertheless he was a nice person. Thank God I didn't get the other tutor coz the tutor I have doesn't care if we participate or not, if we have full attendance then we get full participation mark, regardless if we don't say anything or do anything during tutes. I wanted to borrow his book but because I forgot his name, I was scared to call him up in his office. So I just left it. Hope Aun Shiang lends me hers. :)

I saw this cute guy in my tute. Asian (of course), Malaysian? possibly. His accent sound like Malaysian or Singaporeanish accent. My class is all Asians, not one caucasian or other races like Greek or Italian. I'm like.. err.. ok.

Bus Stats lecture is super boring. The lecturer was super hyperactive. He was running around the lecture stage, to the microphone, to the transparency. He never stop for once, not even once!! I got dizzy watching him so I took a little "nap". Seriously, he was all over the place. My gosh, not ever sitting way up the front anymore!! And guess what? I have to do probability AGAIN!! Sucks!! The whole lecture was about probability, the word "probability" was repeated AGAIN and AGAIN. Trust me, I got sick of it.