Day out with the girls.

Today was out with the girls at Glen Waverley. Man... I am getting sick of Glen Waverley. I do my errands there we catch up there, family lunch isalways there, mum always do shopping there, I do everything there!!!

Viet lunch was superb. Except for the fact Cat found a hair in her vermicelli beef noodles . The meal was free and Cat got a free dessert. But my tomato rice and crispy chicken was very very tasty. Very decent price with decent size portion. The service was excellent too. The waiters were always smiling and saying "Thank You" and "Good Bye" when we left which was unusual for an Asian hospitality. Despite the hair, I'm definitely taking the family there.
We kinda thought that next time we go or to any restaurant, we'll just chuck out random numbers (coz the menu's in numbers) and see what we got. LOL.

Then, as we were leaving, we bumped into Sean. He said Hi and I said Hi back. He has changed alot. He looked quite different. He looked more buff and looked taller. LOL. Too much gyming eh????? Then me and Alka joked about it and how I USED to have a crush on him back in highschool. It was good to see him again.

Then, we had ice cream!!! I-scream!!

But, I wish I could go to the NYE party that Sars, Cat and her bf are going. But, given the circumstances that my parents will definitely object, I decided not to go. I really want to go, I really want to go to a decent party, count-down with my friends, meet new people, go to the after party at the beach and camp there under the stars with my friends and waking up on the beach maybe in time for sunrise, followed with a seaside breakfast.

But who am I kidding, they are sure to give me a big fat no and I'm not the kind that will sneak out and put pillows under my covers to hide my sneaking out. My mum is sure to say this: "You know what they do, get drunk, get more drunk, get into fights, get glassed and get injured, u don't want ur future to get ruin do u??????" or " Ur drink will be spiked or u'll get drugged" or "For what u want to stay up till late, not like u're going to meet anyone decent enough for u!!"

Yup. T_T

I want a ticket to the Aus Open very very badly.

I don't care.

A ground pass would be fine, a ticket to a match would be fabulous, a ticket to the men's final would be my dream come true.

I really want to go... :(

Is it too late to ask Santa?? or maybe the NY wishing star would bring me a ticket.

Speaking of wishes, I watched a really romantic rom-com (romantic comedy) on Christmas day. It was really touching. It's called boyfriend for Christmas. It's about a girl who wished for a boyfriend at 13 and then got her wish 20 yrs later. It is super touching. The way the guy just turned up out of no where. LOL.

I want a tix to Aus Open!!!!!

Xmas.

Christmas doesn't feel like christmas this year. I don't know why, it just doesn't feel right.

I had a small, simple Christmas lunch with the family at home. Just awesome, simple home cooked meal of pasta, tuna and lots of sweet and spicy sauce (how asian!), followed with Sara Lee Choc Cheesecake. YUM!!

Simple, but nice. Then, we had a look at our Tassie pics, how we laugh.

Boxing Day sale. WAS HORRENDOUS!! It was packed of people, bombarded at every angle. But still, I managed to get sunnies from OPSM. I also got new bed linen sheets, time to chuck out the old, dirty, smelly one. Eww.. yeah eww... HAHAHA. Speaking of which, I have to go for an eye test tmrw.

Argh... U know what I wish?? To spend a week at home, DOING NOTHING. I've been out and about almost everyday since hols start. Like none stop out of the house every single day. I just want to chill, relax, and do absolutely nothing. I need to take advantage of this one month break from work and this another 2 months till uni starts to "conserve" my energy.

Oh boy, I cannot wait for this year to end, officially.

I'm back from Tassie.

My hair is very oily (yes, I showered but without shampoo). I've never eaten so much junk in my life and never took so many photos in my life.

Yup, too many photos.

N0, I'm not uploading it.

Christmas.. I'm not in the Christmas spirit. I still have unfinished business from 2008. Stupid. Unfinished. Business.

Freaky health scare

I had a health scare last night. Okay technically, early this morning around 1am.

Yesterday, I went to sleep quite early at around 10.30. Around 1am, I suddenly woke up finding it very hard to breathe. It was very very scary. My heart was pumping really fast and my breathing could not keep up with my fast pumping heart. I was really scared. I seriously thought I was going to die. Serious, no kidding. It was like there wasn't enough oxygen to keep my heart pumping. It was like I wasn't even breathing, like I stopped breathing and my heart was pumping like mad to get oxygen to the whole body. Then, I remember from studying science in high school that a person would die if not breathing for around 3 minutes. I panic like hell.

Seriously, I tot I'm having a heart attack. But, yeah. I told my brother and he gave me some tea to drink. But, no. My heart was still beating very fast. My legs were shaking really badly. Some scenarios were playing in my mind. I wanted to tell my parents, I wanted to go to the hospital. I can sooo see me being admitted into the ER and being put into an oxygen mask.

But somehow things just went back to normal. My parents freaked out the next morning when my brother told them how I couldn't breathe. Like really really freak out. My dad's expression was priceless. Dad wanted to bring me for a check up but I just didn't want to burden them coz check ups cost a fortune.

So yeah. That's why I stop eating junk anymore and more fruits and veg. And no coffee. Man, it really freak me out, really. Also, I realised something that I don't want to die. Sounds idiotic, but I realised I have alot to live for, and I realised my life is not bad.

Yup.

I hate work now. I am sooo in holiday mood now. Damn. So demotivated.

So glad for the Tassie trip the week before Chrissy. I don't have to work and get to go sight-seeing on a place that is long forgotten in Australia.

Honestly, whenever I think of Australia, or look at the map of Australia, I think of all the other states except this little island called Tasmania. I see the Tasmanian island as not a state but part of Victoria. LOL. Yeah, so that's where the whole family is going. I heard its the Australian version of New Zealand. The landscape, town, places etc.

Should be fun. Finally get to escape work. I have to work on Christmas Eve. But on a lighter note, I get to get all the leftovers on Christmas Eve, all the cakes, pies, breads, biscuits that are not sold coz we're going away for a month. :)

Failure doesn't come easy. Failure is common in life. What else, if not failure?? It's part of life.

It's not as bad as it seems. Maybe, maybe not. Sometimes I cannot do this anymore. I really cannot. I could simply just forget about it. Easier option. But, no. No. NO. It's just something that I WANT! And I want it even more now. Sometimes... other times, its pure denial. But isn't it the same?? No. One is dealing with it but with a forceful, unwilling mindset; the latter is not dealing with it but being quite peaceful inside.

I dunno where I am. I supposed I'm the latter, taking it as it comes. This is my dream, has been my dream, and always has been. The dream I'm talking about u ask?? It's my dream to be an accountant. It may seem like a distance dream but no, its all in my palms. I have let it slipped once, and I will never let it slipped again.

Focus, Sally, focus. U cannot, repeat, must not, give up. Dreams like these are worth it at the end of the tunnel. Don't lose focus. I know its hard, but what dream isn't??? I would love to know.

There is no shortcut to a dream ~~~ Britannia High.

Cramness

Church today was very very torturing. Not because it was boring, nothing like that.

Just, I wasn't feeling very well. I've got stomach cram, dizziness, wobbly legs, sore back and neck, moody thoughts. Seriously, my legs felt very very very sore, I was very tempted to sit through the whole praise and worship. Even sitting down with crossed legs is a pain. The pain is killing. Very killing.

Yesterday after work, my back and neck was sooo sore I swear my neck would break. I need a massage asap.

U know, "THE" symptoms of "THE" illness that comes every once in a month.

I dunno. I just couldn't concentrate. The music was playing, my mind was else where. The funny thing was I wasn't even thinking of anything. My mind was just drifting off. But, yeah, it was torturing, just sitting there with sore back, neck and legs and to top it off, stomach cram, which to me is the worst of the worst. Every sec, I felt the need to go to the toilet. But I know my brain is playing with me.

My dad thought I got food poisoning. Yeah.

Day 1. 6 days to go. No, wait, make it 4 days.

New clothes

I need to shop. I need new clothes. I need to get rid of my old clothes, mind you I still have stuff dated back to 5 yrs ago. I know. Very sad. I need new clothes.

BUT, the thing is I hate shopping. I never go shopping just for the sake and satisfaction of shopping. In fact, I don't find shopping very satisfying. It's very mind draining, requires a lot of energy esp shopping of clothes, constantly going into the change room, swapping sizes, making decisions. LOL. Maybe I need a P.A. LOL.

I only shop when I need to. This time I NEED to shop. I'm turning 20 nt year, or to be exact, 3 mths to 20!! I cannot wait to turn 20!!! It's just going to be another milestone as I look back to the past 20 yrs. I don't see 20 as old. It's completely absurd to think 20 is old. C'mon, turning 20 is the most exciting thing ever!!! If 20 is old, what is 50 then???

Yeah, so I need new clothes. Time to grow up.

I sometimes look at Generation Tech and squint my eyes at them.

I was at Epic Youth which is for high school teenages. I don't often go but because I'm free on that Friday, I went. Actually, my bro trick me to go, he said something special is on, but no, it was a lie. LOL.

BUT, I found the kids there were trying to "act cool". It was real obvious. Especially the guys, they were walking around in "packs" and with their oversize hoodies, and baggy jeans with their hands in their pockets and their "cool walk" and quirky handshake. I was like... okay... that is quite cheesy.

Is it just me, or I'm losing touch with "young" people. LOL.

AND everytime I was walking to work, I always bump into school kids along the way since its when school ends. The kids are very energetic and they swear uncontrollably which is very annoying as a bystander. The weird thing is the gap between the girls and the boys. Through my observation (how thesis like), the girls were often found mocking the boys and the boys were acting like jerks and mocking the girls back. They yell at each other, curse each other. How interesting... this kind of behavious is totally intentional by both parties. Adolescence... something I would hate to go through again. Discovering the opposite sex, how do u react?? But to pretend to hate them and let them know u hate them.

It's true, something does happen between 4 and 20. LOL.

Spring Onions.

I hate spring onions, not period.

I prepared Singapore noodles for myself since I'm the only one at home. So, here I am adding whatever I found in the fridge. There's cabbage, yesterday's curry chicken, fried pork from 2 days ago and a stalk of wrinkly spring onion. So, I put everything in my noodles thing. AND! I couldn't find the pepper. Grr...

It would taste better if not of the spring onion. The rest of the day, my throat was freaking dry and I had to drink heaps and heaps of water. I dunno why. And I had to work in the arvo, and talking was a pain. But spring onion makes my throat dry. Anyone else have this experience?? Ah wells.

First day of summer!!!!!! YAY!!!!! I love summer!!!

Beware angry post ahead. Read at own risk!!

I HATE HIM!!!!!!! I FKN HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE IS SUCH A FKN JERK!!!!!!! HE IS A REAL D/H!!!!!

GRRRRR...

I'm talking about the stupid baker that I have to work with every single time. He is soooo irritating!!!!! Argh.. he is the Kyle Sandilands in our work place.

I HATE HIM!!

He looks at everything I do, corrects me EVERY SINGLE FKN TIME. He thinks I'm not capable. He questions me everytime!!!! AND!!!!!! AND!!! The thing that makes me soooo mad is that he tells my boss that I am not very capable YET!! And I found out it was his idea to make me put the trainee badge. He told me last Sat, that I should have a trainee badge because I dunno how to describe the cakes to the customers. I feel like screaming at him, but instead I just smile, nodded and walk away. He tells my boss I'm not quite ready yet, and said I should be still a fkn "trainee". The thing is he is not even the owner of this shop. Like wth. This is stupid.

Urgh... I hate u enough to hate u more.

So, now I'm brushing up on my knowledge. Logging into the shop website to check on the products, esp. the cakes, jotting down everything. I'm going to so kill it. I have had enough of this!!

And OMGosh, u guys should know this. Another thing that kills me is that he ALWAYS expect customers to come in and BUY STUFF. Obviously, he doesn't have an Asian mindset (Asians look/observe/research to find a better product before they spend cash on it). So, whenever a customer was just looking at things, he makes a huge fuss when customers walk out not buying anything. He makes it look like IT WAS MY FAULT that customers are not, quote, "contributing to sales".

ARGH!!

U tell me how I go through this every single day I'm at work. How?? I AM SO PISS every single time. BUT, I try not to let this effect me. Is it just me?? or is he just picking on me.

Dreams #3

I had a weird dream last night. It was not creepy, not scary, just a weird one. That's why I woke up quite early and couldn't sleep after. I was thinking about that dream which is very weird.

I dreamed about bathrooms again. My gosh... I don't know why. And then I dreamed that I'm going out with someone I know (no, I'm not telling). And it was very weird. Then there's this GB/BB thing, I don't exactly remember what to do with GB/BB but I only remember seeing their uniform, possibly a parade or something like that.

That's about it I remember. The funny thing is the guy that I was going out with (in my dream) is the guy that I have a little crush on. LOL. I was waking up feeling somewhat happy coz I wasn't aware it was a dream. So, I tot we were really going out in real life but it was a dream after all. Then, I lay in bed thinking about it.

In my dream, I can tell "we" were happily in love but yeah, don't think its possible. But yeah. I love these sorts of dream.

Love songs dedication

I love listening to love songs dedication on Mix 101.1. LOL. Call me old school, I just LOVE IT!!!!

It's not just the classic love songs that I love but also listening to others share about their love story, be it sad or happy ones, it's just so fascinating and interesting to get an insight of others love journey.

I go awwww at how others express their love for the other half and *sigh* at break-ups/relationship breakdown/divorce/separation etc. Sometimes I kinda wonder if this dedication thing actually works as in if the other person that u're making the dedication is really receiving the dedication coz it would be pure pointless if a dedication was made yet wasn't heard by the other person. Sometimes they just say names like David, Jane, Matt, Sarah etc and I wonder if that particular person is aware which David it is or which Sarah it is. So far, I've have not stumble upon a dedication for Sally. Serious, after religiously listening to the show, its like no, not one YET.

And, sometimes I come across guys talking about their "boyfriend" or girls talking about their "girlfriend". I admit I do get a hit in the head that these types of "relationship" exist. I'm not against "them" but sometimes its quite hard to believe that these people would be talking about their relationship so casually and so freely, for everyone to know. When I hear a guy talking about his "boyfriend", mentioning "he"/"him" instead of "her"/"she" I wonder if that is a guy or just a girl who sounds like a guy. But... I'm not here to judge.

Love songs dedication... I go to sleep listening to that. It makes me feel so peaceful. Nothing better than a few romantic songs and sweet tune to end my day. Every time, it does remind me of all the crushes I had in the past. All the crushes that are worth loving and all those that just makes me feel like a fool. It kinda make me think of how their lives have evolve, what are they on to now, their present relationship etc.

I love this phrase, which is the catch phrase for love songs dedication. It goes like this : "The one that is hardest to say it to is the one that needs to hear it most". Something along that line... oh how I *sigh* everytime I hear it.

Oh Me Oh My

I love this song!!



Tina Arena is superb. The song is called Oh Me Oh My. I simply love it. Her voice is sooooo sweet yet powerful.

I first heard this song on The Today Show and was simply blown away by the song. Imagine, half asleep on the couch, swallowing spoons full of oats down my throat and suddenly hear her sing this oh so beautiful song. I had a wow moment. Yeah.

I love the starting where she starts slow. Quite romantic with the background strings and wind instrument playing. I can so imagine two strangers in a formal setting, more like a ball room or a mutual friend's wedding. The guy in bold tux and girl in pretty, elegant dress and the guy asking to have this dance and they dance the night away, feeling at awe with each other as they held hands and stare into each others eyes. Dazzling lights, solid pearly floor, chandeliers, flowers as both of them are absorb in the moment, smiling at the same time as both of them knew something big is about to happen.

I can't help but smile whenever the song is playing. How I wish for that moment one day. But, I will continue to listen to the song and imagine, dream and ponder.

HAHA.. please.. a girl can dream okay???

My baby.

I finally got this!!

SE 530i!!!!!!!!!!!

I love!!!!! It's the best phone ever!!!! It's slick and slim!!! I love!!

I had a bit trouble getting it. I went to Glen 3 branch but they said its out of stock. So, went over to all phones and they are also out of stock. So, again, went to 3 branch at BH but it was too busy and I got tired of waiting so I left, thinking of going back after lunch. So after lunch, my brother wanted to go to Dick Smith, so off we went, and low behold there's the baby I was running across town for. So, I paid for it, and here I have it in my hot little hand.

It's pretty good.

Can Christmas come today??

I loathe work. Christmas hurry up and come please... I want my 1 month break now!!!!!!!!

Funny how sometimes I contradict myself. I wouldn't know what I would do without the extra pocket money. I mean yes, work is hard but I get paid which is good. For starters, I don't have to rely on my parents anymore, loosing their extra burden. And, I get to save, which to me is a good feeling when u see your bank account gaining ka ching every single time.

And I get to do things that I would not normally do if I wasn't "rich". I got a new haircut, I get to go to Thanksgiving, getting a new phone, sponsoring a child... etc... And I get to pamper myself.

So yeah. Work is hard, I won't lie but what kind of work isn't, I would like to soooo know. BUT right now... I'm really in holiday mood. Really!!

Results this Friday. At least, working gets me busy and focusing my brain and energy on other things.

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These things.

If there was one thing that I would eat and drink for the rest of my life, it would be zopf (wikipedia will tell u more), which is a milk and egg kinda plaited Swiss bread.

IT IS DIVINE!!!!

After work on Wed, my boss gave me one plaited loaf to bring home and I love it very much!! And since then, I have been taking zopf home every single time after work. It's not sweet, actually its tasteless but at the same time quite nice. So, it doesn't gross u out or give u a sugar high. It's quite buttery but not creamy sort of buttery. It taste like a croissant but croissants are alot more buttery and has a crunchy texture. This has a soft texture, kinda like ur normal breads. The thing I love about it is it is really nice on its own, no butter or jam needed. Actually, butter and jam spoiles the taste.

AND! If I had to drink something for the rest of my life, it would be (u guess it) COFFEE!!!!!! I could drink jugs and jugs of it. Okay.. kidding!! Maybe cups and cups of it. I am truly addicted to that stuff. I love the aroma, the smell, the taste, the kick of freshness and how it makes ur head go cuckoo (in a good way), the colour, the creamy bits on top. I love everything about coffee!!! If there was a rehab clinic for coffee addicts, I would be in for sure. LOL. I should get a coffee machine one day.

So, yes. Zopf and coffee for the rest of my life. I don't think I'll ever get tired of them. But, I could suffer from malnutrition tho with such unbalanced diet. But. Yeah.

About Kalkidan

I'VE SPONSORED A CHILD!!!!

Yes. Me. Sponsoring a child. Me!!

Okay... so here's the whole story.Yesterday, there's this Dare Women Conference that is held in church. Initially, I wasn't planning on going. I just wanted to stay at home and watch Better Homes and Gardens and any other Friday night movie. Plus, it was cold, quite unusual during end of November. Also, I never spent Friday night at home; it’s always and always is at OCF every Friday. So, for this once, I decided to stay home.

BUT! Then, mum asked me to go with her. So, without thinking, okay... I went to church. Dare Conference was quite good actually. The message was awesome. The theme was centered on "Christmas". So, we were given tips about how to better ur Christmas celebration and there was this talk about Christmas traditions. And then Nicole came to talk about the true meaning of Christmas.

Then, we got ginger bread cookies and COFFEE for refreshments. And then there was this after party for under 30s which mum (obviously) couldn't go (sadly...), so I went alone. Met Amanda (my ex LG leader.. sounds quite horrible but anywho) and the rest. Had slushies, FONDUE, marshmellows, fruits, but no coffee (young people need to be taught to drink coffee, instead of beer). LOL.

Then, it was time to go. And then so happens that this lady behind the compassion booths was a friend of mum's. So while mum was chatting off, I was browsing through the different sponsorship kids on the desk or should I say I had the CHANCE to browse through the things. U know how sometimes ur too shy to go up to have a look, and browse through the things in case they ask u to do something and u have to reject them?? But this time, I was comfortably looking at all the things, the kid's profile. And then mum suggested, why not sponsor one??

I think I ignored mum at first but then, hey! Great idea. Instead of tithing 50 dollars per fortnight, I could give 44 dollars per month!! yes, and then give another 6 dollars to OCF and 10 dollars for tithing. So, yeap, that's the story of how I got hook into sponsoring a child. I was thinking about it briefly before church but wasn't really very enthusiastic about it. LOL.

It feels so good now. I'm sponsoring a girl. I've always wanted a baby sister, so now, I have a daughter. LOL. Her name’s Kalkidan, pretty name right??

Meet Kalkidan. (I should probly take a better one)

At first, I didn’t care about the name; I didn’t even know this girl’s name. She’s 5 this yr, 6 next yr. I used to envy friends who have baby brothers or sisters, esp. baby sisters. And now I have a baby daughter. Should be interesting.

Thinking about it, God does work in miraculous ways. I really thank God for keeping me financially safe, given such huge turmoil in the economic arena. And also, wow! Right? So very unexpected!! God, sometimes U do surprise me.

Feels real good to make a difference. Speaking of difference, I feel very at awe (in a bad way) of how the US govt’ would spend billions and billions of dollars (apparently 3 billion) to save financial institutions from hitting bankruptcy than solving world poverty. WTH... doesn’t make sense. 3 billion just to save banks that maybe didn’t even deserve the 3 billion.

But, politicians will be politicians. Anyway, Kalkidan, I LOVE UR NAME!!! It’s so funky, trusts me, and definitely beats Beyonce or Gwyneth or Rhianna. Hopefully one day we’ll meet on FB or Myspace or FS or some new social sites in ur generation to come.

I’m SOOOOOOOOOO excited!! Oh me gosh... guess when her b'day is??? It's a special date. No... not 22 March, not THAT coincidence. It's 28 Febuary!!!! I'm shocked as much as u guys are. But I'm sure its going to be a very special date for a very special girl. :)

God, u never seem to amazed me more. It was a random pick, yet so many surprises. And! I have another item on my prayer list!! Wuhoo!!

Damn. Rhys won.

WTF... Rhys won. Rhys won Make me a Supermodel.

It's not fair!! It's just not fair!! Shanina is much much much way better than Rhys. I don't want to see Rhys in Magazines, Billboards, catwalks or advertisement. I WANT TO SEE SHANINA!!! I would rather see pages of Shanina than Rhys. And male models never appeal to me at all!! It's a female profession after all, just swarmed with male wannaby models.

URGH..... What is wrong with Australia?? Are they blinded enough to not see Shanina is better in poses and sexy and confident in catwalks. Her Make me a Supermodel portfolio is sooooo much better than Rhys, infact better than all the other contestants. Her shots are soooo confident and hot and NOT AWKWARD at all!! Since day one, she doesn't look like just a "contestant" but like a supermodel.

I'm sure the judges are disappointed by this. I'm sure they wanted Shanina to win.

There better not be an upset in Australian Idol this Sunday. Wes has got to win!!!

Relaxing work.... at last.

Work today was very relaxing today because it was raining.

I had to do an extra shift for Yesool who could not work that arvo. So yeah, of course I willingly help out given that there's nothing else I have to do. But, waking up at a freaking 7am, and found out it was raining and windy and drizzling, I just felt so sulky that I have to work, not only that, I have to WALK in the rain to work.

So, I hop back into bed. But then my boss called me and asked me to come in 30 minutes earlier. The bed was so warm and fuzzy and cozy, I didn't want to get out of bed. Ah wells...

But like I said, work was very relaxing. The rain means less customers means less work. I had to even pretend to be busy. But meh, definitely was relaxing, looking outside, it was dark and the continuous pouring of rain was very relaxing. LOL. And I had the OCF Clayton CD song in my head, especially the song "Audience of One". So, I was humming to the song in my head.

There were a lot of customers asking for coffee. There was this customer who I think is on drugs. He looked quite wasted.

I have a blister under my foot. It effing hurts and the funny thing is I was in sneakers. LOL.

AND Yeah to my baby brother who has finish 1/5 of his VCE exam. LOL. Go smash that Chinese paper!!!!! Proud of u bro!!!!

Proud owner of valuable assets

I think I've got large boobs.

LOL. Sorry for everyone who has to read this and for those who googled "boobs" and somehow managed to come into my blog with the idea of looking for something more "enticing", all of u are perverts. Yup, that's right perverts.

But honestly, I think my boobs are large for a 19 yo. Okay, time for a funny yet disturbing story, I was walking at the Glen one day and I was wearing this baby tee which u know kinda "showed off" my assets. It wasn't showing any cleavage or anything, just a simple baby tee. And as I was leaving, 2 guys were heading towards my direction and one of the guys whispered something to me. At first I wasn't aware but then I realised what the pervert was saying and I was like (of course) wth...

Okay, I wasn't sure whether he said this : "Nice tits" or not. But it sounded quite like this. Wth... wth... wth...I wasn't expecting to grab any "unnecessary" attention. The weird thing is I wasn't exposing much, it was JUST A BABY TEE!!! NOT A LOW CUT TOP!! I bet those two perverts must be discussing about my boobs after that. Like wth... wth... wth...

But u know, later I felt kinda proud?? ><

Hmm... I think I must have shooed everyone from ever visiting my blog ever again.

Oh yeah, freshly cut head.



It makes me look ALOT younger. Do I look like my age tho?? Cannot really tell from this pic tho. LOL. I look so cute!! I think I look 16 or possibly 15. Oh wtever!! When I have long hair, I look more mature. People say I'm 21 and then when I have short hair I look like 16. Tell me what all of u think!!

Oh yeah, Sonia u tagged me ages ago. So... here is my without make-up pic. Altho, I think I cheated a little with this new hair-do and pout. But zero make-up!!

Haircut!

I've chopped my hair. It's very short now. It's very very short now. And I am liking it!!! :P

The length is until my neck at the back and gradually long at the front. The thing is my fringe is quite shortish. It looks quite "hard", like the streaks are glued together. But, I can always pin it up. Infact, I look better that way. And I would look "softer" once I wash my head.

You would not believe how much it cost, but wtever. I like the outcome, its not usual that I end up liking my hair after the trip to the saloon.

I'll post pics soon.

Btw, I'm leaning towards SE K530i.



I was initially going for SE W910i but its a slide phone and I've read others saying that it comes of loose overtime. I've done my full research and have read quite a few of good reviews. Infact, most of what I read is excellent review. I think its a good phone with a reasonable price. $149 on 3 prepaid. Pretty reasonable? Yes? But now, I'm kinda leaning towards Optus since almost everyone I speak to is on Optus. Oh. WTHeck. There's better value for money on 3.

First things first, work more and save.

Why can people be so irritating??

Stupid baker!!!! I am sooooOOOooOOOOOooooooo piss with him!! SoooooOOOoooOOOOoooo mad at him!!

I dunno why he is soooOOOOOooooOOooooo sarcastic!! I don't know!! He makes my blood boil!!

Okay.. just today, at the start of work, I was being friendly, saying Hi to everyone at work before work starts, its like the norm there, saying Hi before working.

And I was saying "HI" to the baker, and the baker was being so very stupid, that he repeated my "Hi" again and again, oh.. let me recall, 3 effing time. Then, he said that I was not enthusiastic enough and did an example of my "unenthusiastic hi". I just rolled my eyes and shrugged it off.

I was like wth... u're mad that I did not say it properly?? shouldn't u be the least happy that I said Hi to u?? It's not everyday that I'm in a happy mood, and not everyday u get to see the "happy" me okay?? NOT EVERY DAY!! He expects us to be happy everyday. SO DON'T EXPECT ME TO ACT HAPPY OR BE HAPPY JUST FOR THE SAKE OF PLEASING U!!

So, I completely ignored him for the rest of the day, or should I say we ignored each other, but wtever. right?? Even the boss could sense some tension between us.

He is soooOooOOOOOooooo irritating!! No wonder his life is so miserable. Someone should teach him how to be less irritating. Urgh... AND AND!! He keeps making these comments about my degree. EVERY SINGLE THING I DO, be it cleaning the tables, serving customers, washing dishes.. EVERY SINGLE BLARDY THING!! He relates it to my degree. He makes these comments like, " You're at uni, u should know all these stuff" or " You're at uni, u should be SMARTER". Sometimes he questions my degree, " Hey did u know that blablabla in the Finance industry?". If I wasn't busy, rushing around doing my job, I would sit and debate with him. But wtever. right?

Also, he acts like he's the owner of the shop, like. NAH-uh... first, the shop is a proprietorship, IT IS NOT A PARTNERSHIP!! And he acts like he owns the place. So wrong!!! He thinks his decisions are final. YES!! including employees in decisions is good, BUT!! He makes all the final decision in the shop, including the Christmas goodies just out this week, the photo poster, and gluten free stuff.

So... yes... ignoring him actually made me feel better about everything. Two can play this game, but I'll play it wisely. I'm just going to do my job super well and prove to all of them who underestimate me, and still doesn't trust me YET!! I'm just going to do what I need to. And let them see my full potential. I believe in myself, that's all that matters.

I hope I don't sound like a bimbo above. I think I sound more smart?? LOL. Studying business can come into handy in business debates. LOL.

Taking advantage of end-of-year sale

I'm getting a new phone, because my brother has a new one.

*Background noise*

Haiya... so kiasu meh?? LOL. Beh song arh???

I'm changing to 3 as well. Stupid Vodaphone!! I hate u!!! Seriously...

But, I ask everyone and no, most of them are on optus, not 3. Imagine me going around saying this: "R u on 3??" I think its a cool phrase,"R u on 3?". So, I'm still contemplating coz if no one else is on 3, then it would be a waste. But apparently, most monash students are on 3 or optus. Like the majority of them.

But u get more value for money on 3. I dunno... or maybe alot of my friends are working at 3 and kinda influence my decision.

BTW, phones I have in mind...

1. Nokia 6500 slide
2. Sony Ericsson W910i
3. Nokia 6300
4. Samsung U900
5. Sony Ericsson W660i
6. Sony Ericsson 530i
   

I'll add on once I do my research. Google it to see how the phone above looks so lazy to find pics and upload them.

The potter and the clay.

Today, I knew I was going to get very emotional at church. I warned myself not to cry on the way to church. As I walked into the auditorium, I was calm and collected. Kerrie Anne Butler was the worship leader for today.

In the middle of the worship session, there was a break and then one of the network pastors, Justin stood up and asked if anyone needed any prayer and asked them to come forward so the leaders could pray for them. I wanted to go up but u know... fear got the better of me. But it did not bother me much.

Then, in the middle of the praying session. A song came up, a song that touched me so deeply in my heart. I don't know the name of the song, but it goes like this.

" I love You Lord, You rescued me, You were all that I want, You're all I need"

The lyrics to this song seriously pulled a string. I closed my eyes, hot tears were coming out as I reflect the past coming week. This week has been quite overwhelming. Since exam period, my heart has not settled one bit, I'm over-worried, over-stressed about the whole situation.

The word "rescued" especially, rescue in past tense, made me realized all the good things God has been doing in my life, all the many blessings He has given me. Giving me awesome people in my life, arms and hands, giving me this degree, all the help and guidance and comfort, a job, all the answered prayers... etc, its just so overwhelming. I realize all this time, I've asked God for this and for that and just today, God opened my eyes to see what an idiot I have become to forget where I've come from and how good God is.

The message was something I needed to hear. It's about God moulding our life. Paul talks about Jeremiah and how he fully trust God. He talked about three points.

1. God works
2. God creates
3. God re-creates

He said God not only create us but he also re-create us. The word "re-create" stood out for me. He did not create us then abandon us but he carefully mould us into something for full value of use. Paul uses the analogy for a potter and clay. The potter symbolises God and we (of course) are the clay. The potter intricately shape and mould the clay to make it pretty to look at, useful for its main purposes be it a flower vase or an ornament. If he fails to make the clay pretty, does the potter throw the clay away and use a new set of clay?? NO. A good potter would use the "failed" clay again and again until he is satisfy with the outcome.

It is same with our God. He not only create us just for the sake of creating, but he re-create us at the same time. I know there may be seasons of life where I would feel neglected, forgotten but today, God reminded me that He's still here and I don't have to worry, that this is the time where God is "re-creating" me. But then why do I not help but feel worried?? I guess its human nature to feel that way.

God is the potter, we're the clay. Thank you Jesus for revealing yourself, for keeping me on track and forever looking out for me. Thank you, I couldn't ask for any better. Amen.

U think life is easy?

Today, work was one word... horrible.

First, I was dead tired, I could barely open my eyes and my brain is very much half dead. All because of sleeping at around 1am the night before after getting home from Thanksgiving and ended up only having approximately 5 hrs sleep.

Work started okay. I was kinda disappointed that I have to wear the "trainee" badge again. I was like oh no... not again. I don't really understand why I'm still branded a "trainee". I DONT!! Not like I don't know how to do my job okay!!! I am very capable and very confident about every aspect of my job. YES! I am abit slow! YES! I am average as compared to other staff! YES! I am not as good as the others but I know what I'm supposed to do inside out. I don't know why they still don't fully trust me given that I've work there close to 6 mths. It's just so demotivating to have to wear the "trainee" badge again. It just make my level of motivation go from level 9 to around level 3. That's how deliberating this is. But, I try not to let my emotions get the better of me. So, I just carried on like it didn't matter. But, I'm being reminded when first-time customers said: "ooh.. trainee eh??" But I just shrugg and move on.

Everything went alright until I accidentally burnt the microwave oven. Yup, I burnt the microwave oven. There was smoke everywhere, thank God it did not go into flames, if not I'm in huge trouble. It was super humiliating okay. At that point, I was so disappointed at myself. I feel like an idiot. I feel like a fool to think that I would be so stupid to not think before I do anything. The customers were joking about it, lady boss was obviously not happy and the baker made a comment that made me feel worst. My mood went downhill after that. I was so upset with everything that I wanted to just leave. But, no... I had to stay and breath and fake a smile. And! You have no idea how freaking hard it is!! Seriously, my mood was like nothing ever imagine. My sudden mood change surprise myself as well. I was mad at myself, disappointed that they still don't trust me, I wanted to cry, there were tears in my eyes but I hold back.

So, that was my stupid effing shitty day. Sometimes, I feel like I want to tell them that I cannot do Saturdays anymore because I have OCF on most Fridays and I always reach home at around 12. So, it would be quite hard for me to get up, ready to work on Saturday.

And just yesterday, I had to do my re-enrolment. I had to choose my subjects for nt year. And all of my core Accounting units needed the prerequisite of AFF 1120. And I'm really afraid I might fail that subject. And if I fail it, I have to repeat it next year and I cannot go on to my other units. It's really scary. Lord, I don't want to fail it, just please let me just passed it. And of course having to defer my Management exam is quite frustrating to think I have to sit it again this January.

Urgh.. I'm really worried. Really stress. Lord, please save me. I don't know what to do. Why is life full of uncertainties?? Wouldn't it be better if life has a map and a instruction manual? I'll just sleep on it and pray about it.

Today.

Today was quite a busy day. I think I was out of home for almost all day. I woke up at blardy 6am, and couldn't go back to sleep, too excited about today and tmrw I supposed. Anyway, I called Ali to schedule a meet up with her to discuss about the Ambassador program since I miss the welcome event yesterday. So yup, met her at 11am and discussion goes for an hour or so. Then at 1pm, I was supposed to go to Harsh's bollywood party. But we were asked to bring a $5 gift to exchange with each other, so I brought a packet of bath soap. But because I didn't wrap it yet, I hurriedly went home (more like bus home) to quickly wrap it. Then at 1pm set out (again) to go to Harsh's house. And guess who I bump into on the train!! Sarah Namour!! I bump into her!! Coincidence!! So, yeah, we chat until we reach Glenny and then I took another bus to Harsh's house.

We had heaps of fun!! First, we watch a bollywood movie, can't remember the name, can't even spell it or pronounce it anyway if I even by chance remember it. The movie has a nice story line (very lazy to describe it) if u ignore the wackyness and weirdness of it. Then, we had spagetti and something and a yummy sweet ginger thing. Then, we were assigned a team task to dance to a bollywood song. It was soooo much effing fun!! Then we swap gifts and I got bracelet from Misty. She got it from China.

Oh I forgot!! I have henna on my left hand. Harsh did this.


Pretty?? I hope I don't get told off at work on Sat. But its all natural stuff, no chemicals.

Then, at night, went to church for Leader's summit. Actually, didn't intend to go but because mum and dad are going and the church is just near Harsh's place, I just pop in to save my parent's any trouble. Leader's summit really pump me up, they were talking about 2009 and u know, there's so many uncertainties about 2009, but Senior Pastor Mark Conner was talking about the how to lead in turmoil situation. He said that its not certainty that all Leaders need but confidence that it will get there. Also, we had a praying session in groups of three and one of the lady prayed for me, so it was really nice and comforting.

So yeah, that was my day.. Oh, I have to blog about my last CG outing yesterday. Next time.... maybe.

Today at BoxHill.

Today, I ask mum to bring me to Box Hill. I wanted to see if I can find any pretty and cheap dresses for Thanksgiving. I have blogged that I'll be wearing the yellow floral dress that my cuz, yung che che gave to me. But since I have nothing to do and mum needs to do grocery shopping, I hop of to Box Hill to see if I can find anything.

Most of the shops there have very bad style!! It's not my style at all. Coz BoxHill is very Asian, and u know Asians are known for their Ahlianess and girlyness as seen in Japs and Taiwanese, I don't find it very appealing. But I came across this sweet pink dress which is quite pretty, but didn't try it on. And another dress which is blue with pink straps which is quite pretty as well, but didn't try it on. Wondered around BoxHill and then made the final decision to return to try the sweet pink dress but the shop was close by then. So.. yup, u guess it, left empty handed.

But, oh wells.. I've already decided on the yellow floral dress anyway. Besides, I get to save up my cash AGAIN. Me and my saving up... don't blame me!! We're in a financial crisis now!! And "presumably" headed towards recession. So, saving up is potentially the best action atm!!

Got mum mango iced green tea from Bubble Cup. But, she didn't like it, she commented: "Too sour and too bland". Talk about gratitude!! So, in the end I drank half and mum drank half. And then, she complained that I feed her bad stuff and make her feel bloated. Then, I said: "I'm giving u ur daily dose of antioxidant for fuller and clearer skin." LOL.

So, here is what I predict my week to be.

Tmrw, going to the salon at Mt to get my eyebrows done for Thanksgiving, then work. Tuesday, going to the Glen to buy bangles and rings and cuffs, anything that makes me sparkle and anything that lifts my outfit coz its not very formalish, hope they will let me in. LOL. And, I almost forgot, a 5 dollar gift for Harsh's house party on Thursday. Wednesday, work in arvo. Thursday, Harsh's house party in the arvo and night, Karaoke at Glen with mates. Friday, Thanksgiving!!

Excruciating month.

Exams are finally over. Quite relieve actually but part of me just feels worried about the whole thing. And plus officially, I haven't completed all of my exams since I deferred Management. So, quite worried about how that will turn out. Also, I'm really afraid I'm going to fail Accounting exam. No joking, very very worried about that. I go to sleep thinking about it and then wake up thinking about it. I don't want to think of what if I fail, what if I have to repeat it next year. But it just keeps coming up. But... the other part of me is just reassuring me that everything will go good.

This is going to be an excruciating one month, before exams are out.

On a lighter note, my other exams were good. I think I HDed it. That's why if I fail one unit, I'm seriously going to stab myself. But, looking forward to Thanksgiving and meeting up with the girls. Can't believe this year is almost gone. I had to fill in the date for my last exam and holy gosh... its November already!! So, I had a wow moment in exam. LOL. Imagine that!!! In a way, its a good thing.

I am amazed at my cousin's five year old son, Ryan. Pardon me, I don't know what to call him in terms of Chinese ways of calling people. U know how us Chinese have different methods of calling close relatives, like there's a different term for uncle, aunt, niece, nephew etc, and different term for different sides as in mum's side of the family and dad's side of the family.

It's quite complicated. But I call him Ryan, like duh.. what else would I call him as. Wonder what he calls me?? He calls my mum gu po, but mum dislikes people calling her gu po. She says it makes her sound old. But my ah chim (which is my aunt at my dad's side, my dad's brother's wife), said once that she would be really happy if someone calls her gu po.

Anyhow, the reason why I'm amazed is he has got a blog!! I was like what is a 5 yo doing with a blog?? And he writes really well for a 5 yo!! I only started blogging yr 12 maybe!! And he's starting at 5. I salute u... man!! But really, I never really talk to him ever. Like never okay. Well, when I'm back home, he's still 1 and u don't expect a 1 yo to speak much yes?? Don't think he remembers us but maybe he does. Well... he says in his blog that he remembers us but maybe not specifically.

As much as I hate to admit it, I do miss them. I used to hate their teasing, making fun of this and that, but I do miss them. It's true, Asians are not very family-oriented people. Australia has help me to escape all the unnecessary family squabbles. But, kinda think about them once in a while, about how each and everyone of their lives has evolve into, what they are up to, are they happy or sad. Besides, we're still a family. I still think about my aunt regularly, my er yi (mum's second sis). And of course my da jiu and er jiu up at 29th mile, I wonder how his life is now. Occasionally, I think about how all my cousins are doing, those working and those studying atm. And of course those with families. I wonder if they ever thought of us. But, I don't care.

Speaking of which, my cousin Onn Onn koko is getting married this coming Nov. Looks like we'll be missing it. But, really happy. About time koko... about time.

Fat!! die... Fat!!

I think my waist line is increasing. I can feel it, I can feel the excess baggage. I dunno why all the fat tends to concentrate on my waist area. No where else but my waist area. Exams have definitely made me fatter and depressing but somehow have made me feel smarter. But really, I dunno if I've packed on the pounds coz I don't have a weighing machine and choose not to have one. My jeans don't feel any tighter but I feel very out of shape, its just one of those moments.

But, I will start jogging once more when exams are done and get myself back into shape before Thanksgiving.
Have to start the burning process once exams are done. I think I look like a guy from behind coz of my broad shoulders and strong back. If I have short hair, I would be mistaken for a boy. LOL.

Will definitely have to start jogging once exams are done. I like it want my heart pumps blood and oxygen to the other parts of my body, it makes me feel alive and happy? Maybe get Jane to join me. :)

CG combined meeting

Just back from cell hangout at Jack's place. We had a combined cell with DG. It was sooo much fun!! We played taboo. I love taboo!! It is sooo much fun. This is how u play it. Well.. there's this pile of cards and u pick one and u have to describe the word to ur team without using the words on the card. Get it?? No?? such bad description of the game. LOL. For example, if the word is flower, and there's three words on the card that describe it like spring, scented and bees, u have to avoid using these three words to describe flower to ur team and they have to guess it.

OMGosh.. it was unbelievably fun. Especially the Glenda bit at the end (Glenda's my cell leader), everyone was laughing at her. Oh gosh.... we laugh so hard till we cry and almost peed our pants. Never laugh so hard ever!!

Then, Rong Yao and Joel brought KFC and ice cream, 3 flavours, choc chip, vanilla and mint. And we ate. Then we continued taboo. Then, we wanted to play Glenda's Princess theme monopoly. OMGosh so cute!! The Disney princess theme!! But it got too late and some people have to head back to study if not we could have stayed the whole night!!

Oh yes. Big CONGRATS to Dennis Ong for graduating yesterday!! Sorry I miss it, I had exam. :) Excuse lar Sally excuse lar.. But really. The sad thing is he will be going back to M'sia for good coz his visa is going to expire soon. See graduation = leaving all of us. :( But really happy for u lar!!! Did u realize I started to put "lar" in my sentence?? I dunno why lar.. when I talk to M'sians and Singaporeans, I'm tempted to put lar at the back of every sentence like when I speak, at the end of the sentence my mind is thinking of the next sentence but my lips is trying to say lar. So, I will hesitate in between sentence. Quite annoying okay?? It's like the word "lar" is the word to end all sentences!! LOL. It's as if a rule saying :"Jika kamu ialah rakyat M'sia, sila guna perkataan "lar" di dalam semua harian (how to say conversation in malay??)"

But, it was awesome to hang out with everyone. I love u all!!! It just makes my worries look smaller. And I know even if I fail, even if my life is a complete failure, it wouldn't matter coz I have awesome friends like u all. Like what "The Purpose Driven Life" says, worldly possessions are just temporary, focus on Godly possessions and life would be meaningful and fruitful. Don't fret on small, simple things but concentrate on the bigger picture.

I brought this t-shirt which says OCF Clayton, I guess I am now officially an OCF Clayton-er.

Election craze

So sick of the US Election. It's been going on for how long?? Almost close to a year. Damn. Every morning, I wake up turn on the TV and The Morning Show is sure to report something about the US Election!! Like almost every morning okay!! I don't mind if its once in a while but everyday?? I don't want to start my day by reading about how the politicians sabo each other or slurs about Sarah Palin. And I don't understand why us Australians would care who the next US president is!! Do u care?? I don't! And neither should u!! Not like we're still under John Howard or anything!!! FYI John Howard = American dog.

BUT! Why would us Australians want to know anything bout who wins this election. WHY? OMGosh, I just called myself an Australian. Ah well.... staying here too long has its effects.

This whole thing will be done in a week. Funny, I read something in Esperanto (student mag) about the election.

"It would be discrimination against black people if I don't vote for Barrack Obama, discrimination against old people if I don't vote for John McCain and discrimination against women if I don't vote for Hillary Clinton."

or something like this

"If Barrack Obama wins, he would be the first black man living in a white house."

Huhuhu...

Bad week, exam stress and flu bug.

I had the most frustrating week ever. Okay for starters, I got sick and oh what a coincidence, it's exam week!! Well I was sick on Sun and I had Accounting on Monday and then Tuesday I have management and Money and Capital on Thursday.

So I had a bit flu on Sun but I shrugg it off, thinking that resting would do me justice the next day. So, on Monday, I did go for the Accounting exam. And boy, I don't think I did great. Half way through the exam I just felt so tired and I couldn't think. I really felt like giving up coz the paper was just so blurry and my brain was dead, I JUST COULDN'T THINK!! I couldn't remember everything I've studied. But the flu got worst after the exam coz for no particular reason the Racecourse (our exam venue) was very windy and very cold and the wind was blowing at my face. And there was no where to go except to wait outside the cold so that's where my flu worsen. I called daddy to come and get me. And that night was just very depressing.

So the day I have my management exam, I still plan to sit for it. But then I just decided to defer the exam. I mean I was so weak, I cannot think, I just want to sleep. I really want to get it over with but who am I kidding, I'm just going to go in there and do really bad. So, I deferred my exam, meaning I didn't sit for it but defer it till January. I lodge a special consideration form and mummy brought me to see the doctors to get a MC. I hope they allowed me to.

So today I'm feeling much better. I did go for Money and Capital, it was unbelivably quite easy which was a relieved since I was stressing about it for the whole semester. Now, I have bus. stats left next Friday.

Really, I am so grateful that God is guilding me. I'm really grateful that He is helping me in this period of time. I seriously cannot imagine how to survive without my firm belief in Him. I seriously cannot. Even if I have family and friends to help me, I still cannot see how I can do this on my own. I cannot imagine how non-believers would react in my situation, or would even make through any dreadful circumstances. But I am glad I can lean to God for guildance. And I am very proud to say I am very much trusting and having faith in God that everything would turn around just fine. It's things like this that make myself grow stronger, I turn to His word for guildance, I seek for Him for guidance and pray and hope for the best.

So, this is my week. I guess I made it through, hopefully it will all come together. Really funny, in the middle of this whole stress, a children church song was playing in my head, it goes like this:

"Trust, trust in the Lord, lean not on ur own understanding" The sentence "Trust, trust in the Lord" was playing again and again.

Coincidence?? Supernatural?? I think not.

Ok.... here we go, fingers crossed.

Okay.. so most of u know (that is if u read my blog) that I've been struggling to decide whether to drop my other degree, Banking and Finance. So here it is.

Five Signs You Should Change ur Major

To tears? Maybe not, but sometimes I get quite demotivated, esp. in the middle of a sem. But, demotivated doesn't mean I'm bored TO TEARS okay?? I don't suddenly become emo and erupt to tears in lectures and tutes. I love accounting, CANNOT get enough of it!! XD Whenever I study right, I have to force myself to stop, put down my book and study something else. I love doing the whole Dr = Cr business, its so very satisfying. Dr = Cr!! The golden rule of Acnt!! And the journals are very satisfying as well!! So yeah. But Banking and Finance is another story. I dunno why. But it seems harder, but I don't think its boring. It's quite interesting, really, just require more concentration.

You're Doing Poorly in Your Current Major Courses

I strongly disagree. I'm doing good. At least I'm not failing. But still, we'll see in the coming exam.

You Chose Your Current Major Without Much Thought

I think about it way too much. Seriously, this is an example and all the crap things I mention here.

You Keep Reading/Asking about Other Majors

No, I don't read about other Majors anymore. The last time I pick up the university course book is last year when applying for unis and stuff.

You Just Can't Let the Idea Go!

Hmm.. I'm still pondering, but less. I dunno.


Okay.. so um. I'm good!! :)

Check this out!!! Gabriella Cilmi at the Aria Awards 08. I love her style!! She definitely had her own rock chick/girl next door/young innocent style. Who would ever thought gold metallic would jump of as a young, vibrate look?? I always associate the colour gold with old wrinkly people. LOL. And leggings on a brezzy spring night??? Infact I think she was the only one in leggings!! AND!! I most love her accessories!! I love her collection of chunky rings!! She had rings on every finger!! Kinda cool actually!! Love the danzling bangles as well!!

But what do u think of the necklace she's wearing??

(Sorry couldn't find any better pic)

I am stealing this style for Thanksgiving!! Okay.. I'm wearing a cotton yellow (close enough to gold), floral dress, since its spring and Spring = flowers, so yeah, no, actually really lazy to go out and buy one dress and ended up only wearing it once. So might just stick with something I got. BUT!! I dunno tho, its not very formalish mainly because its made of cotton (LOL), but I could dress it up besides whats wrong with being different?? Look at HER??? I'm sure everyone is going to opt for slik or the classic strapless dress, either black, blue or white. (Asian colours!!)

But I'm going to dress it up like what she did!! I am going to go get some chunky rings and bangles. Probly not a necklace tho, coz it would look too try hard and dressy since the dress is already flowery. And paint my toe nails red!!! Since I'm going to wear peep toe heels, it's going to stand out very much. :)

SWOT Vac is finally here!! Not like I'm counting down to the days but unbelievably no more classes until next February.

Btw, those who don't know SWOT Vac means Study while On the Vacation. Like wth, but better than nothing right?? LOL.

Had last OCF meeting last night, it was superbly fun. So hot now, so lazy to blog about last meeting. Basically, it was a fun one. I cannot think atm, let alone study. Duh, so depressing man. But first year, don't stress. :)

Just finish reading the two letters by the two missionaries OCF is sponsoring. One is from Sibu, and one is from Korea. Apparently I'm not supposed to read it (according to my brother it's strictly confidential and only for the OCF committee), but too tempted so in the end I read it. :) No harm done yes??

The first letter which was from the Korean missionary was quite a letter. Just in one letter, u can really tell the desperation and hardship these people are going through just to praise God. Even reading the Bible is like nothing ever. The level of freedom these people have is zero. They cannot even read the bible or have bible study or sing hymns and pray publicily. The missionary tells of how the kids wrote sheets and sheets of Bible just because the Korean authority cannot find these loose papers and also how they memorise the verses coz reading the Bible is forbidden in Korea. They try to remember every hymn's lyrics coz singing hymns is not allowed also. And most of them just hum the tune to the hymns fearing of getting caught if they sing the whole hymn.

The letter was really eye opening. Growing up in a free country where religious rights are respected, it just seem quite surreal how these people could be risking their life just to praise God. And the desperation these people have is quite overwhelming. They really have a strong belief and trust in God. I could never imagine myself ever in this situation where praising God could result in jail or even death?

Anyway the Sibu letter also show hardship of the missionaries. It's a husband and wife combo. The wife is battling cancer. These missionaries really have put their trust in God and really let God challenge themselves. It's really quite something to read something that comes straight from the people who have experience it first hand. I feel blessed that I can praise God freely anytime I wish. I truly look up to these people who have put aside everything for the glory of God. It shows how much God cares for his creation and would never neglect a single being.

I just saw this Worksafe ad that is super frightening on TV.

It's about this girl working in a Bakery and this customer was asking the girl to slice a bread and the girl didn't know how to operate the slicer and was scared to ask someone how to so, she put the bread into the slicer and accidentally slice her finger off.

Link here

I was like ZOmg... mostly because I work in a Bakery as well. I bet my boss will feel very afraid after watching that ad, given that I am quite clumsy. I think I'm going to be very traumatize by the slicer we have in the shop.

Seriously, watch the video, the whole setting is similar to our shop with breads every where but the slicer is slightly different coz ours have a handle and is much safer than the one in the ad.

Oh gosh.. everytime I see the slicer or use the slicer, I will think of this ad. This frightening ad. This shows how effective this ad is but still is very traumatising okay?? Wait till u see the other worksafe ads, they are worst. But I guess it makes me more careful in the workplace.

Another day.

HELP!!!! I AM STRESS!! Like nothing before. My heart is beating very fast as I write this, maybe due to caffeine overdose or a combination of caffeine and stress. Bad combination yes?

Calm down. Calm.... Calm... think of the beach or sun or blue sky or no it's not working. :(

Can I just finish first year without going through the excruciating exam? Yeah right... dream on Sal.

There's so many things I want to do after exams, eg. getting art supplies from lincraft or that art store that I forgot, but know they have awesome things. Zomg.. I could post my drawings here. :) Or like how the experts do it on deviantart. LOL. And maybe prepare for Thanksgiving. So tempted to go out and find something to wear now. VERY TEMPTED. It's not funny.

Ugh.. exams. I'm making this worst arent I.

Why is Money and Capital such a bitch??? Why?? To all those who love money more than anything, ALL OF YOU r killing us, we have to study this shyt just to help look after ur precious money. :(

Today was an effing wasted day.

I woke up with a sore head, tried coffee but didn't work, tried studying but failed, stupid partnership accounting, company accounting, worst. As a result I failed to study today. That's why my day was a failure.

Stupid bus ride back from uni was so excruciating slow coz of traffic which so happen to be one of the days where there seems to be more cars on the road. Tried sleeping but couldn't.

Got my Management case study. Disappointment. Real disappointment. At this point I'm just so done with everything that I cbs with it anymore. I dunno what went wrong, everything was a mess.

I am very tired now. The thought of not being able to study tonight just makes everything worst.

I need a new hobby.

I feel like I'm losing passion about everything. I used to be quite talented. I still play the piano, I still take up art lessons and dancing lessons and I could swim!! In fact I love swimming when I was younger. And now, I don't even have a hobby. Every time when someone ask me "what do u do in ur free time?" I make up something like piano or sports etc. Quite pathetic but my life is like that.

I'm thinking of getting art supplies and draw. I still like drawing. It's something I love a lot. Especially painting. I remember loving to paint landscape drawings and I love art galleries (too bad they cost a fortune), the smell of freshly painted art work and analyzing every art work on display, being in my own moment and looking at every detail, colour and texture. Seriously, I stare at every picture for the max 5 minutes, where as others just glance over.

Or I could bake. I could get baking supplies!! Thinking of getting an electric whipper!! Baking is now something I love. I like baking cakes, cookies and biscuits. I also learn how to make choc mousse. 4 ingredients only, Good quality choc, thick cream, 4 eggs and orange juice (optional), beat it together and there u have a whole bowl of choc mousse!! Fast and quick and yummy!! No cooking required or baking or even freezing required!!! I like to add choc chips to give it some crunch coz it taste quite flat and fluffy and bland overtime.

Or I could take up dancing lessons again. I remember when I was young I love dancing. Dad wasn't too keen about me taking up lessons coz he thinks its making me girly. Like wtf, girly? I'm a girl and being girly is a good thing ok? Mum jokes that I'm too girly and too "ai mei", translate as beauty conscious. Like what do they expect me to be? Tomboyish. I wanted to rebut saying: "Just be thankful that I'm not a lesbian!" But of course, I kept it to myself.
But really, I want to learn to dance. Thinking of jazz, something freestyle.

Okay...... So I do have a passion. :) I need to find it again. Hmm.. blogging helps to refresh everything.

I'm thinking of getting coloured eyeliner. It looks pretty, seductive and sexy. Especially those with glitters, they open ur eye and make ur eye look larger. LOL. Optical illusion. Thinking of getting either white ones or blue ones. But I dunno how to use them. Never use coloured eyeliner before. Most of the time its black eyeliner.

Hmm...

Speaking of which, my bronzer is running out. Need to get new ones.

If someone gave me this,

Roses and little cutie bears that jiggle!!!

I would immediately melt. Not just guys but girls, if u give this to me I would be ur super best friend. ( How Paris Hilton!!)

Stole this pic of aly whose bf got this for her during VDay. So cute right?? She even kept the bears and lined them on the table. So clever yes? Two gifts in one.

AUSTRALIAN OPEN IS MOVING TO SYDNEY!!! NO!!

okay so much commotion.

BUT STILL THEY ARE PLANNING A SECRET PLAN TO MOVE THE OPEN TO SYDNEY OR WORST, OTHER OVERSEAS CITIES LIKE SHANGHAI, DUBAI OR ABU DHABI, wtf. But it's the AUSTRALIAN Open!! okay okay?? Repeat, AUSTRALIAN.

How?? How?? And I was saving up for next year to at least attend a match and get some Garnier goodies. And maybe get Ana Ivanovic's autograph. How can?? :(

It cannot move to Sydney!! Melbourne is such a lovely place for the Open. I'm going to protest if it does!! No! I will be a very sad person if it moves to Sydney or some other places.

Tips for exam success

I was reading this report that was send to me by CA (denotes as Chartered Accountants). And it's really helpful and all but scary at the same time SINCE EXAM IS IN 2 WEEKS!!!!!AND I AM NOT READY AT ALL!!

But, one of the tips is this: Good handwriting is an absolute essential

I'm like wtf. Good handwriting? And then it continues to say neat handwriting receive higher grade than poor handwriting, even when the quality of the work is similar. I'm like shyt! My handwriting during exams is untidy, messy and not very eye-appealing. Can't blame me, I either rush too much during exams or jot down my idea quickly to not forget it. But I will try to make my handwriting neater.

Good tip, yes?

Stress list:

• Bus Stats assignment. Half done, half not done, more like no idea how to. Probly copy of Isaac later.
  
• Exams in 2 weeks. NOT READY!!
  
• Screwed for Accounting. Haven't touch it in ages. Need to read through Text, exercises, practice exam.
  
• Management is not very good as well. Haven't touch it since week 3? Have to read Text, exercises, not to mention memorizing every single theory/definition/solution etc. Not looking good.
  
• Money and Capital is worrying me the most. So far, I've studied but as I said its not sinking in. I can't remember a thing, so I'm back to square one. I have to write up answers for exercises in the book and then attempt to remember them. Memorizing, remembering. Worst, its a day after Management and the two requires huge memorizing. How?
  
• And plus, why did I agree to work the day after Management? Could have stayed home to study. Argh..
  

Oh little brain, I hope u survive.

Okay.. so I have this supposedly "company" dinner on the 18th of October. I laugh at the thought of a "company" dinner since it's just a small bakery/cafe shop. But nevertheless "company" dinner makes it glamorous? How else would u say it then, an employee-employer get together/social?

Honestly, I don't want to go. That's right lately I've become quite antisocial. But for the sake of the employer(s), I decided to go or more like pressured to go!! Maybe I'll just go and sit and eat and smile and say nothing. The worst that could happen is bad food, I hope they pick a Chinese restaurant coz that's the only thing I want to eat. I over heard them discussing about Mexican and Spanish? Ew.. right?

And then lady boss ask me a very stupid and idiotic question: "u bringing ur boyfriend?" I just went: "Sorry boss, don't have one!!" And then a statement which seems too good to be true came from her, "Oh wells.. better get one before the dinner!!"

I'm just like WTH.

Search high and low for a boyfriend just so I don't have to go solo? Oh please.. I know she's joking and pulling my leg and I just shrugged of the suggestion put forward and continued with the cleaning business. But, even if I have one, I wouldn't consider bringing him along. Mixing business and personal isn't my type of thing to do. I prefer not to make such a huge hoo-har about every thing.

But WTH right? Solo has always been my thing.

MONEY AND CAPITAL IS SHIT STUFF!! I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN BOTHER STUDYING IT!! CALL ME MAKING A FUSS ABOUT NOTHING, BUT! SERIOUSLY IT IS SO FRUSTRATING!! I'VE BEEN READING IT FOR THE I-DUNNO-HOW-MANY-TIMES, E.G. 5 TIMES AND IT DOESN'T STICK IN MY BRAIN! I DUNNO WHY!! WHY?? TELL ME WHY???

breath...

okay back to normal self.

Normally when I study, I remember the main points, important bits and can do a brief summary in my head. But, for Money and Capital, everything goes in and comes out like in a million second. It doesn't stay and before bed time I totally can't recall what I just read/study/revise. It feels like I never even read that stuff at all. So, how frustrating is it????? I dunno why I even tried. I could have easily drop the degree but I dunno what to do. I dunno if it is worth all this just to look smart and feel absolutely better than others. Yes. I do have an inner ego side, the kiasu (competitive) side that doesn't give up.

So, how now? But something tells me I'll be ready, and get HDs or Ds the least. But in terms of enjoying it, will I be able to???

So today at work was better than other days.

Made two cake orders. And took a phone order. Made around 7 coffees. And helped twice with gluten free goodies. Pretty impressive.

Speaking of cakes, I think I'm getting a choc mousse cake or maybe a sacher tort for daddy's b'day.

The thought of going back to uni despised me!! I don't want to go back! But hey! At least I can lock myself up in the library and study my heart out. OR! I could camp in the library and feast on prawn cocktail sushi and custard tart and oh yes, the humble coffee. :) Coffee gets the heart pumping!!

My heart just shattered to pieces. But never mind. Not like it's the first time right??

Reading other people's blog, I realised how boring my life is. They have fascinating life, mine is just the same every single day, more like a replay of the same day every single day of my entire life.

I start my day, waking up, breakfast, uni, lunch with usual prawn cocktail sushi and custard tart from this small bread shop in Caulfield, uni again, bus home to village, walk for 20 minutes to door step, have anything in the house(mostly leftovers), TV, online e.g. check mail, or FB or useless stuff. Then, dinner, shower, some chores that needs to be done. Then, study, assignmenting, more study, homework etc. Lastly sleep.

My life is always uni or work or OCF or church. Then a repeat of this the following week and the next. Quite boring huh??

That's pretty much my life.

Other people's life is full of excitement. Yup. Honestly, i dunno why my life is so boring. Maybe I need a guy? LOL. I also dunno why my love life is so boring. Honestly, I envy those who have someone to hug, love, kiss, wake up to, someone to pamper and spoil you, someone that care for u and hear ur thoughts. Someone to make life interesting.

Yes, my life is as boring as can be. So predictable!! The only thing that might be different is a late bus, that's about it. I sound alot like Bridget Jones.

I'm just talking crap now. I know I have alot to live for. I do have a meaningful life, just when u look at other people, u cannot help but feel something missing. There is definitely something missing. And I think I know what it is but there's nothing I can do about it yes??

Tonight's Friends show was funny as. There was this scene where Phoebe was discussing with her friends about changing her name. This was after she got married to her husband Mike Hannigan. Anyway, she was making up these names like Pheobe Buffay Hannigan, or Pheobe Hannigan Buffay or Pheobe Hannigan.

This got me thinking.

Should I change my name when or if somehow I get married?

So, I thought that if I marry a Chinese or an Asian e.g. Viet, HK, Jap or Korean, I will definitely have to change my last name and follow his last name but BUT if I somehow manage to marry a non-Asian e.g. Greek, Italian, Aussie, French, Spanish (and manage to convince my parents or the rest of the family for that matter to let me marry) I would probly go for an add-on kinda last name. Something like Sally Tee something. Yeah! Since my last name is so short I will make it longer and add-on names sounds better if u add a short last name then a long last name.

Hmm...........