Hmm.. there's a tiny pimple dot on my under eye area, exactly on my tear gland, the place where u apply ur eye liner.

Really should be studying but! No motivation to do so. HELP!!! I have to read through M and C and then decide DECIDE whether to drop Banking and Finance degree once uni re-opens. I cannot decide!! It's too hard.

YES Hawks won!!!!!!!!! Soooooo happy!!!!!!! Although I didn't watch the game coz I had to prepare for E-night on Sat night (the game was in the arvo). Mum said it was an exciting match. ( See.. even my mother is hook into footy!!)

BUT! Hawks won!! YAY!! I'm not a huge fan of the hawks tho, but I prefer them over the Geelong team. I think I support Carlton. I'm not a huge, die-hard fan but I still like Carlton. No idea why it appeals to me so much. No worries, next year is their chance!!

On Sunday, after church, went to mum's LG's picnic. We chose a wrong day to go coz today was so damn cold and worst, windy!!!! But we still had fun, barbequeing sausages and winglets, eating, talking... etc. Barbequeing sausages is so much fun!! Believe it or not!! The park was a pretty park too. The fields were covered in yellow daisies!! which is simply gorgeous and peaceful to watch. Could have took a pic but silly us, forgot the camera!! If it weren't for the cold weather, we could have lied down on the grass and soak in the sunshine. But, it was real windy and freezing, so we just sat and ate.

Caught up with Yan Zhen, who finally came back after a year in the States. He did a transfer to somewhere near Chicago, in the countryside to do his 3rd yr. Actually his flight was from somewhere to LA. And after that was a long bus ride into the countryside. AND! He didn't even stop in LA!! I call that plain stupidity!! Why do u go to LA, and not even stop to look for 1 second?? I would have inspected every celebrities houses (or mansion) and go to the walk of fame and glue my eyes open to spot any celebrity. And check if the palm trees are real or fake, squint my eyes at LA Bimbos and take a pic infront of the dazzling chanel boutique. But no, he just when straight to his campus. You need someone to teach u how to social and have fun man...

Yeah.. just chat the afternoon away. We even talk to strangers who were using the other barbeques. Simply relaxing.

Okay... I admit, I cannot wear heels.

I seriously cannot walk in them. 15 minutes is my max and then my whole calves, especially my thighs sore like hell. Every step feels so excruciatingly silently painful!! And I walk lope sided, like I'm dragging one leg, which is not a good sight.

I don't understand why some girls are so head-over-heels (or so they say) of heels. I do admit that girls look hotter, mature, TALLER, leaner, sexier in heels but it's very painful to walk in okay?? I see some girls walk in heels very very comfortably and I ponder to myself, do they feel the pain or not? They not only walk really comfortably, but still in a sexy way. Some of them are very used to wearing stilettos (like heels but higher heels and with a sharp pointy end). Everytime I see them wearing these dangerously high heels, I think to myself, don't fall off and embarrass yourself. But they seem to pull it off quite well.

Maybe some are born with the talent. Maybe someday, when I have to wear them, I will but not now.

Or maybe someone should invent something, like a patch to place on the thigh or a thing to put on the shoe to make it less painful.

But remember, it is a skill as well, like riding a bike, the more u practice the better u get. But for the time being, I'll still stick to the good old sneakers.

Finally, I can start my holiday. Actually holiday officially starts next week. But since I finally finish management and handed it in I might as well relax now and take my break before the next and last assignment is done. So much in my head, finally I can relax.

Going to help Charlene and the "ushering gang" on Friday to prepare for E-night. We're gonna be busy cutting, colouring, drawing, streamering, painting the back drop of the stage and decorations for E-night on Saturday. Btw, E-night is an OCF Clayton production. It is an Evangelical Night, not Entertainment Night and we have been praying, preparing, rehearsing our drama, practicing our dances and songs. It is going to be a huge hit for us.

So Saturday will be "the night" where God will work wonders. Also, I've decided to not skip work. Initially I wanted to skip work to stay at home to rest since I never get to sleep in on Saturdays and watch Video hits and cartoons on Saturday since work started. But I decided to go to work and not be selfish. Work will be good if I put in the effort, no matter how discouraging it is. But, I'm determine to do my best.

Making myself busy by watching lots and lots of K-dramas. :)

I should start shopping....... planning on catching up with the girls and going window shopping and our favorite!! Coffee and cake!! Nothing better than a strong brewed of coffee to wash down the sweetness of cake!!

Oh and speaking of which, I better get this mop of hair snip and cut before I change my mind again!!

I officially hate work. Work sucks! I'm losing motivation.

Every time I have a bad day at work. Every single time!! It's either shitty customers or the effing baker beating the crap out of u or ur own mistakes. Every time I feel so moody, so discourage, so frustrated. A bad day just makes u feel disappointed. I try to keep my emotions in-tact. Every single time I ask myself, is this worth it or not, trying to earn a few measly bucks.

Seriously, work is tiring me out. I don't want to work during holidays or during exam week but I know its a selfish thing to do. *sigh*

But, somehow work has motivated me to study harder. Somehow...

Okay, taking some time out of MYOB. Seriously, its mentally exhausting. I'm left with trial balance and the 2 statements. But I doubt it will balance.

Today, work was awful. Work was very very frustrating. Wanna know why? Because there were shitty customers.

I was serving this customer who talks really really softly and she had an awful accent. It started well, and then she was asking about this bag of bagels that I left at the side after packing up. She thought we sell them in the bag but no, we sell them individually, depends how many the customer needs. At first, I couldn't quite understand what she was talking about coz she was speaking really really softly. Once I knew she was talking about the bagels, I tried explaining to her that we sell them individually. Then she suddenly got very impatient and was mad at me for no particular reason. I started asking her whether she wanted the bag but she interrupted me and didn't let me finish.

And then later, I couldn't quite get what she want so I mistakenly gave the wrong thing to her and wrong change coz of the price difference. Then, she got super agitated, like very very agitated and impatient. She was yelling at me and bull things. The other customers were also quite shocked. I was so lost and so shaken and annoyed at the same time that I totally stuff up.

That totally ruin my day. TOTALLY!! I was so annoyed, like I was angry at that effing customer. Like honestly, I was trying my best to explain everything but shitty customers will always be shitty customers. Like another time, this customer got so annoyed at me coz I put the donuts in the same bag. And then another time, this other customer got annoyed coz I use a PLASTIC bag instead of a PAPER bag.

But I remember what Ps. Mark Conner said, that we have to control our emotions and not let it have a flow on effect. So, it took me some time to cool down. And try to not let that affect me. I serve customers with a smile and to my surprise I manage to cool down when they smile back at me. So, all good.

"Why bother going around chasing some stupid dream?"

Heard that on the promo trailer for the upcoming dance movie, Make it Happen. And kinda got me wondering everything I've been doing till now, all the hard work to get to where I am. And I am very pleased to put in the effort to get here.

I've made up my mind to drop Banking and Finance degree. It's not what I want to do, it's not what I plan to become. Before that I was just doing it for my parents, they have been encouraging me to continue the double degree. I know they mean well. But, I know where I want to get to. Before that, I thought that God was giving me this opportunity that people would die to get, a double degree, but I've pondered long and hard, other people might need it, but I don't.

Thought of the day,

If life was a breeze, would people still be excelling?

So sick of all these responsibilities.

Just yesterday, dad said I was lazy, which is a total insult because I didn't offer to cook for the family since mum comes home late. I did okay... I did ask mum couple of times whether she needs my help and all, just that mum feels comfortable cooking herself and doesn't need my help.

And then just now, dad said I have to be aware of everything that needs to be clean in the house. And said I don't help out enough. And seriously, I'm too tired to even rebut.

I have all the responsibilities in the house. And I'm not even the oldest. My brothers do nothing at all. Every single time, Sally do this Sally do that. It feels like I'm their only daughter.

I have tried to help out alot. I do the dishes every night and sometimes during the day, I cook rice every night, I sweep the floor and vacuum every week. I do everything. And every time mum has her LG over our place, I was the one doing all the tidying up and cleaning. I also have to make sure my little brother wakes up in time for school and not like he is 5 years old right?? I wouldn't mind if he is 5 but he is very capable of looking after himself.

And for dad to say I'm lazy? It's totally absurd. I try my very best to help them. I mean I won't complain if the responsibility was spread evenly between me and my brothers but it seems like its just me doing everything and getting the blame when things are not done right.

Maybe this is why being the middle child is the worst.

HD for Bus Stats!!

What is going on?? I wasn't expecting HD at all!! It totally blew me away. And this is maths we are talking about. I suck in maths. I always suck in maths. I was never good at maths. I remember I struggled alot in maths in primary school.

My maths teacher and also my form teacher is a real bitch. She gave us extra classes after school and she made us do these stupid practice tests every week. And get this, she also made us "announce" our marks for these tests infront of the class for everyone to know. And as always, I never did well in these tests and so I always lied about my marks and then get into trouble for lying about it. See how bitchy she is?? Also, I remember blacking two answers for the multiple choice answers just because I had no idea of the answer. Desperate measures back then.

And here I get HDs?? Like seriously, HD. And I didn't even study half of the stuff in the test. LOL.

Official released of Ellen Degeneres and Portia De Rossi's wedding in the press and media. My brother said it is very disgusting that they are allowed to get married. He thinks its totally unacceptable to allow something like this.

Me, however, I have no opinion on this. Or better put, I choose not to make any comment. I'm split on this issue that has been on and on for ages and ages. I really have nothing to say. I've been brought up in a conservative environment, in a christian family. My religion tells me that homosexuality is wrong but BUT when u see videos like these, u cannot help but feel very sorry for "them".






This is a video about a gay guy called Larry King (Not the host) who was killed in February because of his sexual orientation. As explained by Ellen Degeneres, Larry was killed for asking his murderer to be his valentine. I mean honestly, any normal human being with a compassion heart for other people will feel angry and disbelieve after listening to such stories. It just hit me once more. Don't people get sick of these things?? I certainly am tired of these things.

My religion tells me one thing but human emotions say another. Till this day I cannot understand how Christianity can contradict with absolutely everything. With science, human rights, political issues, I mean if God have laid down His rules in the Bible that homosexuality is wrong, why would He still create people like this, different people, not just sexual orientation wise but races, skin colour, different background, different features etc. Why wouldn't God just create people the same and solve all this nonsense?? I dunno. No one knows why.

Today was very tiring. And the thing that is so strange is that I did nothing. I didn't go to lecture (oops!), I did not have work and didn't do homework, study, assignments... etc... And I feel dead physically and mentally now.

Okay.. I tried reading M and C textbook. And gosh.. the content is so hard to understand and very hard to remember. I was reading the words and my head wasn't fully understand all of it, not just some, but all of it. My eyes were screening across the page, the words, every letter. But I just couldn't quite grasped it. I reassured myself that this takes time and patience.

I am now thinking of dropping my other degree. And just do Accounting. I already have trouble now in first year and believe it, first year content is suppose to be basic things. What will happen later on??

And I am very sure which pathway I want to enter into. I want to get into Accounting. It's already stamped in my brains and locked in my soul. So, why bother to do Banking and Finance? The thing that is making me think twice is that I remember the CPA person said that it is an advantage for graduates to do both Accounting and Finance subjects.

Oh boy... I'm really very confused right now.

Damn.. Roger Federer won.

See the results when Nadal got booted out by Andy Murray.

I purposely forced myself to wake up just to watch the game and ended up watching Federer's victory which is NOT FUN.

Nvr liked the US Open coz of the time difference. But the courts are so much better than the other tournaments. They seems much bigger than the rest and blue in colour which is pleasing to the eye. Maybe America have more cash and more sponsors to make the courts super nice.

And please can someone tell me why Maria Sharapova isn't playing this year? Really surprising. Yeah.. I know stupid question to ask since it's like the end of the season. I was like googling and searching for her pictures in the US Open to see what she is wearing this season. But nothing.

Exam. 27/10 to 07/11

TBH, I'm not very worried. I'm good with Accounting, Management is okay, Bus Stats is a piece of cake. The only one I'm worried about is Money and Capital. But, I'll study really hard for the next 1 and half months. I will not let little things like disappointing mid test or assignments frustrates me or demotivates me.

My goal isn't just to graduate or get HDs or mere passes. These are short term goals. I aim to study to be the best accountant. I know that some people just aim to graduate but for me graduating is one thing and being the best accountant is another thing. You can graduate but at the end of the day, u suck at ur job. I don't want to suck at my job. That would be a waste of my time at uni, waste of my parents' money, waste of my energy.

I am going to study really hard. It's true, success comes with great sacrifice and great effort. And I'm willing to do everything it takes to get there.

I want to watch Camp Rock. It looks like another teenage movie. But looks good. Yup, tuning in with my teenage side. I never watch these kinda movies growing up. Speaking of which, last year of being a teen. :)

The synopsis sounds alot like that Hilary Duff movie, can't remember the name but its about this teenage girl, played by Demi Lovato, having this dream of singing and desperately wants to go to this prestigious singing camp, hence the name Camp Rock. I assume that she met the character played by Joe Jonas, they became friends and then fell in love. Maybe this is another version of HSM. HSM sucks so bad now, the 3rd series will suck even more. I wonder why anyone would bother to watch the 3rd series.

But then would be boring since I know fairly well how the movie will start and end but Jonas Brothers is in it!! I'm not a huge fan ( not like those 14/15 yo teen girls) but I think they are cute but surprisingly I'm not like "OMGGGGOOSH!! they are so cute" or " I want to marry Joe" bla bla bla.. You get the idea.

Btw, is the movie out yet? or maybe watch it on the trustee youtube.

YES!!

Money and Capital major assignment done!! When I handed it in, since I was the only one handing it in, my tutor helped me to check it for me to see if I did all the required things in the criteria sheet, which is very nice of him. Kinda makes me feel paranoid at the start but he said it was okay, just need to check the content of the issue I discussed.

Work today was great. It was a really beautiful sunny day today. Customers were coming in at an early time of 8 am. The day was so lovely, it kinda made me feel energetic and alive and my performance today was satisfactory.

However, I had to miss the US Open Women's semifinals to go to work. But, Serena W won anyway to advance to the final round. She will meet Serbian Jelena Jankovic tomorrow. I am going for Jelena. She deserve to win this one. But I have to admit Serena is a very good player. But Jelena is my pick.

This week will be a cruising week for me since no assessments are due except for that M and C presentation. I planned to watch the US finals on Sunday and sleep in on Monday but crazy enough my boss replace me on Monday and I have to go in at 7am.

My next pay is going to go to that bag. Hey... I earn 400 plus this two weeks and that bag cost around 99. Here's what Fifi from Westfield What's What said about the bag.

" Buy the red patent oversized Mulberry-esque bag…it has serious gold hardware, pockets at the front and room to spare to store everything from your bottle of whisky to George Clooney (and some spare undies too). $99"

Tonight going to Saz's place to hang out. :)

OMG!!!!!!

It's Spring!!!!! Already!!!!!!!!

Too bad it's not very seasonal here in Aus like those seasons in UK. If not flowers would be blooming, spring breeze, pretty flowers, butterflies, honey bees (aiks).........

But still happy spring is finally here.

I survived winter. Winter wasn't very bad except for a few very cold days.

Smell u later, winter!!

1 month left of uni. Geez... time flies. U think? Hold on, wait.. that means finals is approximately in a month. *sigh* So much for the excitement.

Great.. just great.

I found a pic of the bag I want so badly.

I LOVE IT!! Isn't it pretty? $99. Cheap stuff. I want!!