CG combined meeting

Just back from cell hangout at Jack's place. We had a combined cell with DG. It was sooo much fun!! We played taboo. I love taboo!! It is sooo much fun. This is how u play it. Well.. there's this pile of cards and u pick one and u have to describe the word to ur team without using the words on the card. Get it?? No?? such bad description of the game. LOL. For example, if the word is flower, and there's three words on the card that describe it like spring, scented and bees, u have to avoid using these three words to describe flower to ur team and they have to guess it.

OMGosh.. it was unbelievably fun. Especially the Glenda bit at the end (Glenda's my cell leader), everyone was laughing at her. Oh gosh.... we laugh so hard till we cry and almost peed our pants. Never laugh so hard ever!!

Then, Rong Yao and Joel brought KFC and ice cream, 3 flavours, choc chip, vanilla and mint. And we ate. Then we continued taboo. Then, we wanted to play Glenda's Princess theme monopoly. OMGosh so cute!! The Disney princess theme!! But it got too late and some people have to head back to study if not we could have stayed the whole night!!

Oh yes. Big CONGRATS to Dennis Ong for graduating yesterday!! Sorry I miss it, I had exam. :) Excuse lar Sally excuse lar.. But really. The sad thing is he will be going back to M'sia for good coz his visa is going to expire soon. See graduation = leaving all of us. :( But really happy for u lar!!! Did u realize I started to put "lar" in my sentence?? I dunno why lar.. when I talk to M'sians and Singaporeans, I'm tempted to put lar at the back of every sentence like when I speak, at the end of the sentence my mind is thinking of the next sentence but my lips is trying to say lar. So, I will hesitate in between sentence. Quite annoying okay?? It's like the word "lar" is the word to end all sentences!! LOL. It's as if a rule saying :"Jika kamu ialah rakyat M'sia, sila guna perkataan "lar" di dalam semua harian (how to say conversation in malay??)"

But, it was awesome to hang out with everyone. I love u all!!! It just makes my worries look smaller. And I know even if I fail, even if my life is a complete failure, it wouldn't matter coz I have awesome friends like u all. Like what "The Purpose Driven Life" says, worldly possessions are just temporary, focus on Godly possessions and life would be meaningful and fruitful. Don't fret on small, simple things but concentrate on the bigger picture.

I brought this t-shirt which says OCF Clayton, I guess I am now officially an OCF Clayton-er.

Election craze

So sick of the US Election. It's been going on for how long?? Almost close to a year. Damn. Every morning, I wake up turn on the TV and The Morning Show is sure to report something about the US Election!! Like almost every morning okay!! I don't mind if its once in a while but everyday?? I don't want to start my day by reading about how the politicians sabo each other or slurs about Sarah Palin. And I don't understand why us Australians would care who the next US president is!! Do u care?? I don't! And neither should u!! Not like we're still under John Howard or anything!!! FYI John Howard = American dog.

BUT! Why would us Australians want to know anything bout who wins this election. WHY? OMGosh, I just called myself an Australian. Ah well.... staying here too long has its effects.

This whole thing will be done in a week. Funny, I read something in Esperanto (student mag) about the election.

"It would be discrimination against black people if I don't vote for Barrack Obama, discrimination against old people if I don't vote for John McCain and discrimination against women if I don't vote for Hillary Clinton."

or something like this

"If Barrack Obama wins, he would be the first black man living in a white house."

Huhuhu...

Bad week, exam stress and flu bug.

I had the most frustrating week ever. Okay for starters, I got sick and oh what a coincidence, it's exam week!! Well I was sick on Sun and I had Accounting on Monday and then Tuesday I have management and Money and Capital on Thursday.

So I had a bit flu on Sun but I shrugg it off, thinking that resting would do me justice the next day. So, on Monday, I did go for the Accounting exam. And boy, I don't think I did great. Half way through the exam I just felt so tired and I couldn't think. I really felt like giving up coz the paper was just so blurry and my brain was dead, I JUST COULDN'T THINK!! I couldn't remember everything I've studied. But the flu got worst after the exam coz for no particular reason the Racecourse (our exam venue) was very windy and very cold and the wind was blowing at my face. And there was no where to go except to wait outside the cold so that's where my flu worsen. I called daddy to come and get me. And that night was just very depressing.

So the day I have my management exam, I still plan to sit for it. But then I just decided to defer the exam. I mean I was so weak, I cannot think, I just want to sleep. I really want to get it over with but who am I kidding, I'm just going to go in there and do really bad. So, I deferred my exam, meaning I didn't sit for it but defer it till January. I lodge a special consideration form and mummy brought me to see the doctors to get a MC. I hope they allowed me to.

So today I'm feeling much better. I did go for Money and Capital, it was unbelivably quite easy which was a relieved since I was stressing about it for the whole semester. Now, I have bus. stats left next Friday.

Really, I am so grateful that God is guilding me. I'm really grateful that He is helping me in this period of time. I seriously cannot imagine how to survive without my firm belief in Him. I seriously cannot. Even if I have family and friends to help me, I still cannot see how I can do this on my own. I cannot imagine how non-believers would react in my situation, or would even make through any dreadful circumstances. But I am glad I can lean to God for guildance. And I am very proud to say I am very much trusting and having faith in God that everything would turn around just fine. It's things like this that make myself grow stronger, I turn to His word for guildance, I seek for Him for guidance and pray and hope for the best.

So, this is my week. I guess I made it through, hopefully it will all come together. Really funny, in the middle of this whole stress, a children church song was playing in my head, it goes like this:

"Trust, trust in the Lord, lean not on ur own understanding" The sentence "Trust, trust in the Lord" was playing again and again.

Coincidence?? Supernatural?? I think not.

Ok.... here we go, fingers crossed.

Okay.. so most of u know (that is if u read my blog) that I've been struggling to decide whether to drop my other degree, Banking and Finance. So here it is.

Five Signs You Should Change ur Major

To tears? Maybe not, but sometimes I get quite demotivated, esp. in the middle of a sem. But, demotivated doesn't mean I'm bored TO TEARS okay?? I don't suddenly become emo and erupt to tears in lectures and tutes. I love accounting, CANNOT get enough of it!! XD Whenever I study right, I have to force myself to stop, put down my book and study something else. I love doing the whole Dr = Cr business, its so very satisfying. Dr = Cr!! The golden rule of Acnt!! And the journals are very satisfying as well!! So yeah. But Banking and Finance is another story. I dunno why. But it seems harder, but I don't think its boring. It's quite interesting, really, just require more concentration.

You're Doing Poorly in Your Current Major Courses

I strongly disagree. I'm doing good. At least I'm not failing. But still, we'll see in the coming exam.

You Chose Your Current Major Without Much Thought

I think about it way too much. Seriously, this is an example and all the crap things I mention here.

You Keep Reading/Asking about Other Majors

No, I don't read about other Majors anymore. The last time I pick up the university course book is last year when applying for unis and stuff.

You Just Can't Let the Idea Go!

Hmm.. I'm still pondering, but less. I dunno.


Okay.. so um. I'm good!! :)

Check this out!!! Gabriella Cilmi at the Aria Awards 08. I love her style!! She definitely had her own rock chick/girl next door/young innocent style. Who would ever thought gold metallic would jump of as a young, vibrate look?? I always associate the colour gold with old wrinkly people. LOL. And leggings on a brezzy spring night??? Infact I think she was the only one in leggings!! AND!! I most love her accessories!! I love her collection of chunky rings!! She had rings on every finger!! Kinda cool actually!! Love the danzling bangles as well!!

But what do u think of the necklace she's wearing??

(Sorry couldn't find any better pic)

I am stealing this style for Thanksgiving!! Okay.. I'm wearing a cotton yellow (close enough to gold), floral dress, since its spring and Spring = flowers, so yeah, no, actually really lazy to go out and buy one dress and ended up only wearing it once. So might just stick with something I got. BUT!! I dunno tho, its not very formalish mainly because its made of cotton (LOL), but I could dress it up besides whats wrong with being different?? Look at HER??? I'm sure everyone is going to opt for slik or the classic strapless dress, either black, blue or white. (Asian colours!!)

But I'm going to dress it up like what she did!! I am going to go get some chunky rings and bangles. Probly not a necklace tho, coz it would look too try hard and dressy since the dress is already flowery. And paint my toe nails red!!! Since I'm going to wear peep toe heels, it's going to stand out very much. :)

SWOT Vac is finally here!! Not like I'm counting down to the days but unbelievably no more classes until next February.

Btw, those who don't know SWOT Vac means Study while On the Vacation. Like wth, but better than nothing right?? LOL.

Had last OCF meeting last night, it was superbly fun. So hot now, so lazy to blog about last meeting. Basically, it was a fun one. I cannot think atm, let alone study. Duh, so depressing man. But first year, don't stress. :)

Just finish reading the two letters by the two missionaries OCF is sponsoring. One is from Sibu, and one is from Korea. Apparently I'm not supposed to read it (according to my brother it's strictly confidential and only for the OCF committee), but too tempted so in the end I read it. :) No harm done yes??

The first letter which was from the Korean missionary was quite a letter. Just in one letter, u can really tell the desperation and hardship these people are going through just to praise God. Even reading the Bible is like nothing ever. The level of freedom these people have is zero. They cannot even read the bible or have bible study or sing hymns and pray publicily. The missionary tells of how the kids wrote sheets and sheets of Bible just because the Korean authority cannot find these loose papers and also how they memorise the verses coz reading the Bible is forbidden in Korea. They try to remember every hymn's lyrics coz singing hymns is not allowed also. And most of them just hum the tune to the hymns fearing of getting caught if they sing the whole hymn.

The letter was really eye opening. Growing up in a free country where religious rights are respected, it just seem quite surreal how these people could be risking their life just to praise God. And the desperation these people have is quite overwhelming. They really have a strong belief and trust in God. I could never imagine myself ever in this situation where praising God could result in jail or even death?

Anyway the Sibu letter also show hardship of the missionaries. It's a husband and wife combo. The wife is battling cancer. These missionaries really have put their trust in God and really let God challenge themselves. It's really quite something to read something that comes straight from the people who have experience it first hand. I feel blessed that I can praise God freely anytime I wish. I truly look up to these people who have put aside everything for the glory of God. It shows how much God cares for his creation and would never neglect a single being.

I just saw this Worksafe ad that is super frightening on TV.

It's about this girl working in a Bakery and this customer was asking the girl to slice a bread and the girl didn't know how to operate the slicer and was scared to ask someone how to so, she put the bread into the slicer and accidentally slice her finger off.

Link here

I was like ZOmg... mostly because I work in a Bakery as well. I bet my boss will feel very afraid after watching that ad, given that I am quite clumsy. I think I'm going to be very traumatize by the slicer we have in the shop.

Seriously, watch the video, the whole setting is similar to our shop with breads every where but the slicer is slightly different coz ours have a handle and is much safer than the one in the ad.

Oh gosh.. everytime I see the slicer or use the slicer, I will think of this ad. This frightening ad. This shows how effective this ad is but still is very traumatising okay?? Wait till u see the other worksafe ads, they are worst. But I guess it makes me more careful in the workplace.

Another day.

HELP!!!! I AM STRESS!! Like nothing before. My heart is beating very fast as I write this, maybe due to caffeine overdose or a combination of caffeine and stress. Bad combination yes?

Calm down. Calm.... Calm... think of the beach or sun or blue sky or no it's not working. :(

Can I just finish first year without going through the excruciating exam? Yeah right... dream on Sal.

There's so many things I want to do after exams, eg. getting art supplies from lincraft or that art store that I forgot, but know they have awesome things. Zomg.. I could post my drawings here. :) Or like how the experts do it on deviantart. LOL. And maybe prepare for Thanksgiving. So tempted to go out and find something to wear now. VERY TEMPTED. It's not funny.

Ugh.. exams. I'm making this worst arent I.

Why is Money and Capital such a bitch??? Why?? To all those who love money more than anything, ALL OF YOU r killing us, we have to study this shyt just to help look after ur precious money. :(

Today was an effing wasted day.

I woke up with a sore head, tried coffee but didn't work, tried studying but failed, stupid partnership accounting, company accounting, worst. As a result I failed to study today. That's why my day was a failure.

Stupid bus ride back from uni was so excruciating slow coz of traffic which so happen to be one of the days where there seems to be more cars on the road. Tried sleeping but couldn't.

Got my Management case study. Disappointment. Real disappointment. At this point I'm just so done with everything that I cbs with it anymore. I dunno what went wrong, everything was a mess.

I am very tired now. The thought of not being able to study tonight just makes everything worst.

I need a new hobby.

I feel like I'm losing passion about everything. I used to be quite talented. I still play the piano, I still take up art lessons and dancing lessons and I could swim!! In fact I love swimming when I was younger. And now, I don't even have a hobby. Every time when someone ask me "what do u do in ur free time?" I make up something like piano or sports etc. Quite pathetic but my life is like that.

I'm thinking of getting art supplies and draw. I still like drawing. It's something I love a lot. Especially painting. I remember loving to paint landscape drawings and I love art galleries (too bad they cost a fortune), the smell of freshly painted art work and analyzing every art work on display, being in my own moment and looking at every detail, colour and texture. Seriously, I stare at every picture for the max 5 minutes, where as others just glance over.

Or I could bake. I could get baking supplies!! Thinking of getting an electric whipper!! Baking is now something I love. I like baking cakes, cookies and biscuits. I also learn how to make choc mousse. 4 ingredients only, Good quality choc, thick cream, 4 eggs and orange juice (optional), beat it together and there u have a whole bowl of choc mousse!! Fast and quick and yummy!! No cooking required or baking or even freezing required!!! I like to add choc chips to give it some crunch coz it taste quite flat and fluffy and bland overtime.

Or I could take up dancing lessons again. I remember when I was young I love dancing. Dad wasn't too keen about me taking up lessons coz he thinks its making me girly. Like wtf, girly? I'm a girl and being girly is a good thing ok? Mum jokes that I'm too girly and too "ai mei", translate as beauty conscious. Like what do they expect me to be? Tomboyish. I wanted to rebut saying: "Just be thankful that I'm not a lesbian!" But of course, I kept it to myself.
But really, I want to learn to dance. Thinking of jazz, something freestyle.

Okay...... So I do have a passion. :) I need to find it again. Hmm.. blogging helps to refresh everything.

I'm thinking of getting coloured eyeliner. It looks pretty, seductive and sexy. Especially those with glitters, they open ur eye and make ur eye look larger. LOL. Optical illusion. Thinking of getting either white ones or blue ones. But I dunno how to use them. Never use coloured eyeliner before. Most of the time its black eyeliner.

Hmm...

Speaking of which, my bronzer is running out. Need to get new ones.

If someone gave me this,

Roses and little cutie bears that jiggle!!!

I would immediately melt. Not just guys but girls, if u give this to me I would be ur super best friend. ( How Paris Hilton!!)

Stole this pic of aly whose bf got this for her during VDay. So cute right?? She even kept the bears and lined them on the table. So clever yes? Two gifts in one.

AUSTRALIAN OPEN IS MOVING TO SYDNEY!!! NO!!

okay so much commotion.

BUT STILL THEY ARE PLANNING A SECRET PLAN TO MOVE THE OPEN TO SYDNEY OR WORST, OTHER OVERSEAS CITIES LIKE SHANGHAI, DUBAI OR ABU DHABI, wtf. But it's the AUSTRALIAN Open!! okay okay?? Repeat, AUSTRALIAN.

How?? How?? And I was saving up for next year to at least attend a match and get some Garnier goodies. And maybe get Ana Ivanovic's autograph. How can?? :(

It cannot move to Sydney!! Melbourne is such a lovely place for the Open. I'm going to protest if it does!! No! I will be a very sad person if it moves to Sydney or some other places.

Tips for exam success

I was reading this report that was send to me by CA (denotes as Chartered Accountants). And it's really helpful and all but scary at the same time SINCE EXAM IS IN 2 WEEKS!!!!!AND I AM NOT READY AT ALL!!

But, one of the tips is this: Good handwriting is an absolute essential

I'm like wtf. Good handwriting? And then it continues to say neat handwriting receive higher grade than poor handwriting, even when the quality of the work is similar. I'm like shyt! My handwriting during exams is untidy, messy and not very eye-appealing. Can't blame me, I either rush too much during exams or jot down my idea quickly to not forget it. But I will try to make my handwriting neater.

Good tip, yes?

Stress list:

• Bus Stats assignment. Half done, half not done, more like no idea how to. Probly copy of Isaac later.
  
• Exams in 2 weeks. NOT READY!!
  
• Screwed for Accounting. Haven't touch it in ages. Need to read through Text, exercises, practice exam.
  
• Management is not very good as well. Haven't touch it since week 3? Have to read Text, exercises, not to mention memorizing every single theory/definition/solution etc. Not looking good.
  
• Money and Capital is worrying me the most. So far, I've studied but as I said its not sinking in. I can't remember a thing, so I'm back to square one. I have to write up answers for exercises in the book and then attempt to remember them. Memorizing, remembering. Worst, its a day after Management and the two requires huge memorizing. How?
  
• And plus, why did I agree to work the day after Management? Could have stayed home to study. Argh..
  

Oh little brain, I hope u survive.

Okay.. so I have this supposedly "company" dinner on the 18th of October. I laugh at the thought of a "company" dinner since it's just a small bakery/cafe shop. But nevertheless "company" dinner makes it glamorous? How else would u say it then, an employee-employer get together/social?

Honestly, I don't want to go. That's right lately I've become quite antisocial. But for the sake of the employer(s), I decided to go or more like pressured to go!! Maybe I'll just go and sit and eat and smile and say nothing. The worst that could happen is bad food, I hope they pick a Chinese restaurant coz that's the only thing I want to eat. I over heard them discussing about Mexican and Spanish? Ew.. right?

And then lady boss ask me a very stupid and idiotic question: "u bringing ur boyfriend?" I just went: "Sorry boss, don't have one!!" And then a statement which seems too good to be true came from her, "Oh wells.. better get one before the dinner!!"

I'm just like WTH.

Search high and low for a boyfriend just so I don't have to go solo? Oh please.. I know she's joking and pulling my leg and I just shrugged of the suggestion put forward and continued with the cleaning business. But, even if I have one, I wouldn't consider bringing him along. Mixing business and personal isn't my type of thing to do. I prefer not to make such a huge hoo-har about every thing.

But WTH right? Solo has always been my thing.

MONEY AND CAPITAL IS SHIT STUFF!! I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN BOTHER STUDYING IT!! CALL ME MAKING A FUSS ABOUT NOTHING, BUT! SERIOUSLY IT IS SO FRUSTRATING!! I'VE BEEN READING IT FOR THE I-DUNNO-HOW-MANY-TIMES, E.G. 5 TIMES AND IT DOESN'T STICK IN MY BRAIN! I DUNNO WHY!! WHY?? TELL ME WHY???

breath...

okay back to normal self.

Normally when I study, I remember the main points, important bits and can do a brief summary in my head. But, for Money and Capital, everything goes in and comes out like in a million second. It doesn't stay and before bed time I totally can't recall what I just read/study/revise. It feels like I never even read that stuff at all. So, how frustrating is it????? I dunno why I even tried. I could have easily drop the degree but I dunno what to do. I dunno if it is worth all this just to look smart and feel absolutely better than others. Yes. I do have an inner ego side, the kiasu (competitive) side that doesn't give up.

So, how now? But something tells me I'll be ready, and get HDs or Ds the least. But in terms of enjoying it, will I be able to???

So today at work was better than other days.

Made two cake orders. And took a phone order. Made around 7 coffees. And helped twice with gluten free goodies. Pretty impressive.

Speaking of cakes, I think I'm getting a choc mousse cake or maybe a sacher tort for daddy's b'day.

The thought of going back to uni despised me!! I don't want to go back! But hey! At least I can lock myself up in the library and study my heart out. OR! I could camp in the library and feast on prawn cocktail sushi and custard tart and oh yes, the humble coffee. :) Coffee gets the heart pumping!!

My heart just shattered to pieces. But never mind. Not like it's the first time right??

Reading other people's blog, I realised how boring my life is. They have fascinating life, mine is just the same every single day, more like a replay of the same day every single day of my entire life.

I start my day, waking up, breakfast, uni, lunch with usual prawn cocktail sushi and custard tart from this small bread shop in Caulfield, uni again, bus home to village, walk for 20 minutes to door step, have anything in the house(mostly leftovers), TV, online e.g. check mail, or FB or useless stuff. Then, dinner, shower, some chores that needs to be done. Then, study, assignmenting, more study, homework etc. Lastly sleep.

My life is always uni or work or OCF or church. Then a repeat of this the following week and the next. Quite boring huh??

That's pretty much my life.

Other people's life is full of excitement. Yup. Honestly, i dunno why my life is so boring. Maybe I need a guy? LOL. I also dunno why my love life is so boring. Honestly, I envy those who have someone to hug, love, kiss, wake up to, someone to pamper and spoil you, someone that care for u and hear ur thoughts. Someone to make life interesting.

Yes, my life is as boring as can be. So predictable!! The only thing that might be different is a late bus, that's about it. I sound alot like Bridget Jones.

I'm just talking crap now. I know I have alot to live for. I do have a meaningful life, just when u look at other people, u cannot help but feel something missing. There is definitely something missing. And I think I know what it is but there's nothing I can do about it yes??

Tonight's Friends show was funny as. There was this scene where Phoebe was discussing with her friends about changing her name. This was after she got married to her husband Mike Hannigan. Anyway, she was making up these names like Pheobe Buffay Hannigan, or Pheobe Hannigan Buffay or Pheobe Hannigan.

This got me thinking.

Should I change my name when or if somehow I get married?

So, I thought that if I marry a Chinese or an Asian e.g. Viet, HK, Jap or Korean, I will definitely have to change my last name and follow his last name but BUT if I somehow manage to marry a non-Asian e.g. Greek, Italian, Aussie, French, Spanish (and manage to convince my parents or the rest of the family for that matter to let me marry) I would probly go for an add-on kinda last name. Something like Sally Tee something. Yeah! Since my last name is so short I will make it longer and add-on names sounds better if u add a short last name then a long last name.

Hmm...........

Today went to Chaddy with my fave girls. Alkie, Neeha and Saz K. Was hoping for more girls to turn up but they either have work commitments or personal commitments or studies (which btw makes me feel guilty ok?)

Chaddy is a very busy place. People were literally rushing in and out. The place was packed!! Anyway, went for lunch and then went looking around. The things at Chaddy is so expensive!! It wasn't in any of our budgets so we just quickly browse through. Then Neeha had to go finish her assignment and Saz K. had to go back.

So left me and Alks. We got sick of Chaddy so off we head to BH. In contrast, BH had really cheap stuff!! And mine u, cheap yet good quality. Sometimes the price don't match up with quality. But in BH the clothing were cheap as! I almost faint (with wonder) of the price.

I saw a figure-hugging dress around 20 dollars!! Blue colour!! It's tied up at the back with rhinestones across the front. And it fits me nicely but I didn't get it. I have been looking for a dress for OCF Thanksgiving ball and a company dinner later in October. The dress is quite pretty, it shows of my curves and most importantly my bum but the thing is its quite a casual looking dress. Okay.. maybe not, coz there's rhinestone across the front. Perhaps semiformal would be right to describe it.

But I guess I could always dress it up with accesories, bangles, a formal jacket, heels etc. And I could wear it for just about any occasion. It looks quite modest tho, but looks sexy on me. I dunno why but maybe its the figure-hugging thing that makes it hot or maybe it catches my curves at the right spot. But seriously it is a modest dress, no cleavage shown, no mid section shown, only arms and back and legs, (oh how lucky am I to get long legs). And I feel comfortable wearing it. I don't like to wear too sexy things which attract inappropriate attention. Just subtle sexiness and the dress delivers it.

Okay.... See with me buying things, once I spot something I like, I have to go home and contemplate and "analyze" the degree that I want it. Then if I decide I really want it, I will go back to purchase it. I analyze things too much, the consequences of studying economics, opportunity cost crap. Alks brought a dress herself.

I saw lots of pretty and cheap stuff at the shop. It's called Deborah K. I saw a lacy top that I love, a jacket that I love. The salesperson was very nice as well. Coz BH is very Asian, it's an Asian concentrated suburb and u know, Asian salesperson are not very friendly but they seem very welcoming.

Then went home, the family was preparing steamboat. Yup. Dad's idea. We had steamboat with bubuchacha for desert. Bubuchacha reminds me of that cartoon show with the boy and the talking car. LOL.

Currently listening to Jay Chow's new album, "Capricorn". It's good. Very Jay Chow style with constant mumbling and creaking sound and traditional music. Not bad.