Hannah R.I.P

I'm sad, my soul's sad. It's a sad day, it's pouring rain, the sun's hidden away.

This morning Kathy told me that Joel Modra's sister, Hannah passed away yesterday. I thought she was joking but it was really happening.

Hannah. A girl I remember so vividly. We used to walk home together. We lived a street apart. And she will beg me to walk her to her doorstep. I always offered to walk her home even though it takes longer for me to get home. She's so vibrant, always had a smiling face. We had the greatest 30 minutes conversation. I will miss that.

Kathy told me she died in her sleep. She's only 16. So sad. She died at a really young age. She had so much to offer, a school prefect, life after yr 12. I'm glad she's with the Lord. It's scary to know someone close to u has gone. The whole school must be in deep shock, they even canceled residential. Her family must be devastated.

My gosh.... my thoughts go out to her family and friends.

Life is short, enjoy it to the fullest. Don't take things for granted. Appreciate what u got. Make every minute count! Life is precious! Grab hold of what u've got!

Hannah Modra R.I.P. God rest her soul.

Viva Forever

Love the lyrics! Very meaningful!

Do you still remember
How we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave ya
We'd only just begun

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

[Chorus:]
Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one

Yes I still remember,
Every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I'd heard
Slipping through our fingers,
Like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

[Chorus]

Back where I belong now,
Was it just a dream
Feelings unfold, they will never be sold
And the secret's safe with me

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

Money dilemma!

Should I get

A new digital camera?? preferably 8.5 MP??

or
A new mobile?? I sooooo want Nokia 6300!!

or

New casual dresses??

or

That low heel, white leather shoe from a store in DFO that I have been eyeing since last June. Someone else must have brought it by now. It cost only 20 bucks! Dirt cheap and I didn't get it!

or

Save up for my freaking uni text books

Looks like it's the last option! :(

Guys Guys Guys.

I always wonder how guys think. Continue reading to dig deeper. Highlighted means I disagree with the statement. What do u people think? These tips are actually helpful for future references!

Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

WCC Card

Yeah! Got my Working with Children Check Card!! I receive it earlier than expected!

Just right to start first term of ROAR, which is this coming Sunday! It's an application and proof that everyone above 18 year old needs for safety and security reason, as we're in contact and dealing with children. Somehow my card looks different from the rest. But it's really pretty. I like it!

The card has made my day! Now I'm really looking forward for ROAR next week. Should be fun!!

OMGosh, my brother's starting school tomorrow. It's so quick. *sigh* feel so pity for them. I'm actually glad I don't have to go to school anymore. Feel so sorry for the yr 12s, I wouldn't want to go through another year of torture and torment. I make yr 12 sound really horrible right? Mark my words! It is horrible!

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I feel so lazy to work out! The treadmill is calling for me but I just cannot seem to get my ass of and work my butt out. Feel so fat now.
It's PMS I'm blaming. It's an excuse, a very good excuse to stay at home. But still.... I think it's laziness.

Ever since Exam finish, I've been just bumming around, sleeping all day, lazing around like a pig. I don't even even whole a pen nicely anymore, it just doesn't feel right. And my brain must be rusted by now! Feels so weird. I don't even think clearly anymore.

Anywho.....
Australian Open has come to a jaw dropping end! A perfect curtain close finish!
Novak Djokovic claims the men's singles title!! Very happy! Very very proud of him! First Serbian to win a grand slam! Good on him!

But, unfortunately Ana Ivanovic came second, after beaten by Maria Sharapova in the finals. Oh well, runner-up is still better than 3rd place right?? After all, Ana risen to World number 2 after this.

*sigh*
I will miss tennis. There's barely nothing to do now. I remember last year's Wimbledon! It was really good! After that, it was so bored and I was back to my old routine!

Hmmp.. still waiting for a particular phone call.

Random Facts

The Rules:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules. 2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself. 3. Tag eight people at the end of your post and list their names. 4. Let them know they've been tagged.

The eight random random facts about me:-

I have a love-hate relationship with earrings. I either lost them on the streets, accidentally crush them (don't ask me how) or the diamonds come of or the colour fades.

I like to eat raw, uncooked, instant noodle cake. They actually taste good.

I once accidentally ate a label on an apple.

I suck at shopping especially clothes. I really do!

I'm abit blind in the dark.

I don't know how to read the melway.

I am a self-confessed perfectionist.

Get this! I use anti-wrinkle moisturisers. lol. (laugh at me!) People do get wrinkles at 20 okay! Better safe than sorry.

My BMI

Being a health-conscious person, I decided to calculate my BMI.

For all of u who are not as obsessive as me, BMI is Body Mass Index. Body mass index (BMI) is measure of body fat based on height and weight that applies to both adult men and women.

So here I am google searching my BMI. How fun is technology?? U don't have to go through all the trouble and humiliation and embarrassment by visiting the doctors or pharmacies. Just get it done through the net. Technology makes everything comfortable and easy.

It was a real shock to me. I'm like what the..... is this right?? I couldn't believe it. My BMI is 20.4 which is in the normal range of 18.5-24.9. Shocking huh? I am soooo happy and lucky to be tall. My heights makes this a huge difference. Although I wish I was as tall as Maria Sharapova with 188cm but couldn't be any happier with 167cm. Besides I'm still growing right??

This cannot be that I'm normal when everyone said I'm fat. My Aunties, uncles, my cousins, my friends back at Malaysia said I'm fat. I think they mistook my muscles as fat coz I really develop muscles through hardcore weights. Probably my wide shoulders is bit deceiving! It's all mum's fault for passing on her bad genes! And maybe they NEVER seen girls with muscles. That's why I stop doing weights and more cardio.

Really! Now I'm questioning whether I should lose weight and be an anorexic bitch. This astounding result is good but bad in another way. Should I? I have to at least lose 5 kgs. That's my NY Resolution. But I'm glad I'm healthy. My heart's functioning well, my lung's not block, I still function like a girl (u know what I mean), my liver's clean. I'm able to stand 30 minutes of up-hill walking and 15 minutes of weights so it's all good!

Oz Day

I receive a message from an anonymous sender. It's really random.

Message:
Lamb chops, lamingtons, chesty bonds, sing-a-longs, bring your thongs.
Fosters cans in your hands, BBQ all weekend, this is Australia.
Beach palace Hotel Coogee. ENJOY.

Lol.. I was like what the... Obviously promoting Australia Day which is the 26th of Jan.

A real funny story. I was working and this lady ask me what's going on the 26th. Coz the shops close on that day.

I'm like.. err.. It's Australia Day? Unbelievable. Ur Australian citizen and u don't know when's Australia Day?!? Call urself true Aussie! Even me, a PR Student manage to remember the actual date! lol..

I'm not much Aussie anyway. I dunno the history, I don't even know the number of PM the country has. And forget about the National Anthem, I know none of them except the first line. I don't adopt the Australian culture which is pretty drastic. I don't eat lamb, I never go to the beach and I don't own a BBQ set. I don't even talk Aussie as in Aussie slangs. I mean this is the 21st century, who talks like the oldies any more??? And my favourite colours are not green and gold. lol........

I sound so anti-Aussie. Don't get me wrong, I still like the country, if not I won't be living here right? It's still one of the best, civilized country where fairness and democracy is one of the priorities.

Aussie! Aussie! Aussie! OI!OI!OI!

Go Ana!

YES! YES! YES!

Ana Ivanovic's through to the semi finals! I'm sooo happy for her!!! Too bad I couldn't watch the match between Ana and Venus Williams coz of Enrolment Day. When mum told me Ana won, I thought she lied to me, but turn out it was true!

Good on ya Ana! U have made us all proud. Scores: 7-5, 6-4 . She was always beaten by Venus thats why I was so shock with the results. Won in straight sets! :)

Go Ana! Go Ana! The championship title is just a drive away!

In the mean time, I shall fantasize on this. I read somewhere that she's one of the most beautiful tennis player among the rest, picking up 55% of total votes. I thought Maria Sharapova was more popular, but she only had 35% of votes. Couldn't agree more. So there u have it.

The Dare Devil

ARIES –TheDaredevil
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

Is it just me, or none of this fits. Okay, maybe some. But compared to previous predictions, this is pretty good, considered previous ones are totally fake and incorrect. Refer under fun and psych.

Incorrect bits:
Lose interest quickly- easily bored? Very incorrect. Once there's fire in me for something like a project or a guy or a dress or material goods, the fire remains. At times it gets fury but it never dies.

Egotistical? Does this mean I'm MEANT to be ego, full of pride, no humility at all? Am I really like that? I'm I? I'm not quite sure about this. Yes, I do show off sometimes but not like at a huge scale.

Easily angered? That doesn't sound like me. I'm not famous for all throwing a huge tantrum. I control myself see?

The rest are pretty true actually.
Physical and athletic. Very true
EXTREMELY impatient. Somewhat true. But not EXTREMELY.
Loves a challenge. Yes, anyday.
Courageous and assertive. Maybe not so assertive. Courageous yes, after years of being independent and trying to run my own life.

The Dare Devil. I like that. *paused* The Dare Devil. *nods head*

I would like it!

I'm actually looking forward to uni. Funny huh how my mood swings in 24 hrs.

Just finish my enrolment stuff yesterday. Looking through all the core common units is really refreshing as I know half of it from commerce subs in VCE. It's also what I long to learn and expand for the next one year. It's also something I'm interested in, my passion since yr 8.

I'm just glad I got this course.

I've been asking others opinions. The majority of my mum's friends who are accountants said it's a VERY good course. It's quite comforting since it came from professional accountants. So I guess I would stick to it. C'mon it's better than Commerce right??

Oh stuff the Caulfield dilemma! Yes, it's small, but It's neat and not scattered all over. Just one tight, compact campus. There's not much uni life compared to Clayton, but I can handle it. Besides, I never was really into huge, mega stuff anyway. We could take the tram to the city!! Yeah! That's a plus! And I could meet a whole lot different people that are not as obsessed with their studies and getting HD's!! People that share the same passion and ambition as me. It would be a whole new support group! I like that!

Chances are I might like it. I would like it. It would be a whole different place!Things are getting interesting.

Dedication to all MWSC 07

This is the clock up on the wall
This is the story of us all
This is the first sound of a new born child before he starts to crawl

This is the war that's never won
This is the soldier and his gun
This is the mother waiting by the phone praying for her son

(chorus)
Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

Woooah

There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab just waiting for the call

This earthquake weather has got me shaking
Inside i'm high up and dry

(chorus)
Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

Confess to me
Every secret moment
Every stolen promise you've believed

Confess to me
All that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we cant win no matter how hard we must swing

(chorus)
Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been

(chorus)
Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been
What could have been
We could have been

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been
What could have been

Life Group leader?

Decisions.. Decisions.. Decisions

Should I start internship to be a Life Group leader? All this talk about serving God has made me want to reach out to others. Not forgetting the pledge I made between me and God that I would step out of my comfort zone and draw others closer. But somehow it didn't feel right. I was afraid it would fail, turn the other way round. I was afraid that I might not be able to sustain the challenges and obstacles ahead.

I woke up and started reading some scriptures. The book of Ephesians! My favorite book in the bible! And I came across a verse that said of how Jesus Christ obediently finish God's mission by dying on the cross to save man kind. And how we should follow up his footsteps. That we should give our love and cares to those around us. It was quite reassuring.

I ask God to show me the way. Give me the wisdom and power to make this some-what big decision. 80% of me want to do this, but I know this yr will be a yr that I will make a difference. I know God would be nice to me this year.

He always is! I just wasn't aware of it.

Comparisons

I hate the word comparison. I wish it never existed. Once u feel good about urself, I find the whole cycle of comparison starts and never finishes.

U feel ur healthy physically, not too fat, not too thin. But when u look at girls with bones protruding out of their flesh, models on fashion mags that are able pull of a bikini that well, u feel that the mass is greater than u think. There's bulge here, fat there, too flabby.
Sometimes I wish I was taller when I'm already considered tall.
Wish my hair was straighter when it's already unbelievably straight compared to the Aussie's frizzy, curly hair.
Looking at typical Taiwanese girls, I wish I was fairer, when I am already quite fair.

When u feel u've achieved the best u can, u feel pleased with urself, then here comes someone who got 99.95. And then u think how smart they are and feel that ur not intelligent enough. U feel that it's not great getting the result u got. U feel cheated that someone could get something so "wow" effortlessly and here u are busting ur arse off. And no matter how others say ur smart, u kinda rub it off, giving the "all Asians are smart" excuse.

When u got into ur course, u feel glad. Then, someone got into Melbourne or worst Monash Clayton. U knew u weren't the best. That this is not good enough even though to the rest of the people is already considered better. Disappointment kicks in, complains and grumbles. U don't look forward to this, u wish it was better.

Every time I go pass Monash Clayton, I hated myself. That could be u! In there! But no! Where were u? At Caulfield.Yup.

*sigh* Can the World be any worst?

I know I have to be grateful to everything thats happen around me. Learn to count my blessings. Learn to appreciate everything. Learn that imperfection existed.

Bring me to sleep valley!

I am so tired now.

Forced to drag myself out of bed at 6.30am. The earliest I've woken since FIFA World CUp 06. That time dad woke me up at 5.30am to watch Kaka play!

But this time, I had to drag my half sleeping body out of bed because of morning shift from 7am to 1pm. My eyelids were so heavy, I could hardly get a move on. And can u believe? There's even customers as early as 7. I'm like ok... wake up! Work time!

So here I am tired. And no I don't ever take afternoon naps. I'm weird. If there's sunlight, even the tiniest, I can't bring myself to sleep. Arh well...

Manda's surprise party at Sofia Burwood East at 7. Happy 20th Manda!! Congrats for ur research scholarship for lab work at Monash sweetie.

Uni offer

The waiting game is finally over! Yes. I got my uni offer. I wouldn't say I'm totally disappointed. It was something I expected anyway.

I made it to Accounting/Banking and Finance at Monash Caulfield. I'm happy with the course but just bit disappointed with the campus. Yes, it's still part of Monash Uni which is one of the top business schools.

But, Caulfield?

Maybe because everyone's emphasizing on how good the Clayton campus is. And how popular this campus is compared to Caulfield. Caulfield isn't as bad as it is. I just have to get use to this transition.

But, I'm still happy with the course. It covers a wider scope and I'm sure I'll be able to undergo industrial training later down the track.

Double degree=Double hard work!! But I'm built for hard work so that won't be a problem! (I hope!)

I would like to thank my parents especially my dear mother for all the love and patience u gave me and my siblings. My dad for being the greatest sport for never failing to visit us every holiday, giving me Methods lecture through Skype, and making phone calls all the way from Kuching every night. Most importantly, for supporting my passion and dream of becoming an accountant. Also, making me feel good about my ENTER and Uni offer.

My friends, Alka, Sarah, Reg for the encouragement, support, the pain of looking at me cry. For creating the best last years of High School.
Neeha, Susan, Laura, Yuky for making Methods fun. I wouldn't survive Methods if not of ur wackiness!
Annie, Sakura for making me smile every time because of ur cuteness.
Wikum, Jazz for bumming with me in the VCE center to make sure I really study. But, in the end I had to poke u to keep ur head in. Thanks for making studying "fun"
Tracy, Kathy, Alka, Azeem, Rohan for making Accounting fun.
Michael for helping me with Economics! And teaming up with me to get Mr. Russell down! Much appreciated.

Thank you everyone! Couldn't have made it this far without u guys! I'm FINALLY going to uni! I'm excited but nervous!

Congrats to those who made it into Medicine and Physio. Congrats to everyone.
Wish u all the best!

OMGOSH

OMGosh... I found out something sneaky, incredible, unbelievable! Something my big brother's been hiding from the family! Cannot believe u did something like this! U are so very dead when mum finds out.

But, being the considerate sister in the world, ur secret will be kept.

Cannot believe this! I had an OMGosh moment, my mouth was open wide, I cannot believe this! So unbelievable! I'm making a big deal because this is just plain crazy!

CRAZY!

But Interesting... hmm.. I shall investigate furthur. I can't help it ok!! This is so fun! *Grin*

The Prayer Faith

Church was AWESOME!! It was so lively, so energetic! So touching! It was rocking hard!

We had a special guest speaker all the way from Seattle, Washington. He's from City Church! His name is Pastor Jude Furquior. He is awesome! Double awesome! He preach on The Prayer Faith. He gave us lots of past experience on how he had to pray to save the impossible. His stories are bit far-fetch and unbelievable.

But with God, anything is possible.

It was a real inspirational talk. In the end, he offered to pray for those with impossible situation. And I stood up! I didn't care what other people think. I instantly stood up. I really need prayer from Pastor Jude. I need a miracle to get that uni offer. And this is it! It felt great to be prayed for. While he was praying, I was feeling the energy. I regain my faith that I loss due to negative thoughts. I trust God, it's just something indescribable. U have to be there to actually feel it!

I told God, no matter what happen, I will still be ur number one fan. U've plan out my life since I was in my mother's womb. It would be so foolish to not trust God completely when he's plan out ur entire life. Ur schooling, ur friends, who ur going to marry, ur job, all the obstacles. It's only up to us to live the life the way God wants it to be.

As Ps. Jude points out, prayer really works!

Dress to impress

I want to get more dresses! Not like those formalicious ones! But summer dresses! It's summer! And I only got one summer dress!

I think I look better in summer dress! They are so easy to wear. So feminine and cute at the same time! It hides my tummy and highlights my *ahem* bum and *ahem* athletic calves! Lovely!

OMGosh I lovvvveeeeee bubble dresses! And baby doll dresses! I'm through with jeans! They are so out now!! I wanna get more skirts and dresses!

I must get MORE! MORE! MORE! Before summer ends!

Silent treatment

Don't talk to me for the next two days. I want to hide away! Uni offers is so cruel! So brutal!

I thought ENTER results was brutal, but uni offers is worst! Coz it's the determinant of ur future! Ur pathway to either success or failure.

Sleepless nights, head spinning like hell, leg muscles hurting from jogging, sore throat after excessive yelling/screaming/shrieking/shouting at the TV during tennis tournaments, nose bleeding due to hot weather.

*Sigh* even exam periods are nothing like this. This is really big deal for me.

Fingers crossed! All the best guys! But, please... leave a spot for me at Accounting/Finance Monash Clayton!

March babe

Here we go again. Lets see what my birth month mean!! Teehee....

♥ MARCH = FLIRTATIOUS SLUT

You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with an August birthday. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,you've got the looks for it!!!

There is some serious correction to put forward.

Flirtatious Slut? Great flirt? Puhlezz, I am not Miss Flirty ok! If not I would have a bf by now!
August birthday? Letsee... There's June, July, September, November, December. Score! none! Well.. mum's August but I love her not like her ok!
Record collection? I have none!
Films? Yes, I can pick good films. But I have no interest to Movies.
Become a famous actor/actress? This make me laugh so hard! lol.... Actress? Never in a million years would I even think of becoming one! And get this, FAMOUS! Not some random actress but famous! Walking down the red carpet, mixing with Hollywood's A-listers? Sorry,not me!

So there u have it! Contradictions one by one! I should be Intelligent peep! lol.......

Breath.

I'm starting to feel bit scared about the uni offers. I thought it was Tuesday but found out that it's actually Monday. I'm starting to feel the heat. Breath, Sally, breath.

I mean, it's so full of uncertainties. I'm afraid of the outcome. What if I don't get into Acc/Finance? What if I don't even get into Monash Clayton?

Life is full of "What ifs?"

I have a strong feeling I won't get into Monash Clayton. Something tells me I might get Monash Caulfield. I don't want to trust or believe that feeling but it's so strong that I cannot ignore it.

It would take a miracle to get into Monash Clayton.

Only time will tell. Only time will tell.

Flight scare

This year I promise to be good, go for God's kingdom, spread the gospel. That's the pledge I made after that horrible flight from KL to Melbourne. Here's the story.

Getting ready for flight, although not so enthusiastic and excited as we didn't get to fly on Qantas. Anyway, in all the in-flight entertainment, supper and smiley flight attendant, the plane got a little rocky. The pilot announced that we're going through a storm and told the passengers to remain in their sits and stay calm. I thought it wasn't so serious as the rest of the passengers were calm, doing their stuff, ignoring the announcement.

As for me, I panic (in my seat of course). The plane was really rocking, swaying side ways. Seriously, I thought I was going to die. Lots of things were going through me head. I was constantly reminded that we're on a plane! Not a bus, train or car! A plane! 300 feet in the air! What scared me was that we're flying above the ocean. What if it crash and I fall into the deep ocean? I kinda imagine scenes from Air Crash Investigation, people rushing for their lives.

And at that very moment, I told God that I will complete His mission, spread the gospel, save innocent souls, bring them to God. Not that I'm scared of dying. I am 100% sure I'll live an eternal life in Heaven. But I ask God to let me live.

Thinking back, I wondered. Did God intentionally wanted a storm to happen at that exact moment? Did God want to open my eyes? To realize my incomplete mission? Quite funny actually. Maybe. And I thank you. It wasn't an experienced I would wish to go through but it's a forceful encouragement for me.

Yup, this year I will do my best to spread the gospel.

Work and insomnia

First day at work! I'm working at a Fruit Shop at Ashburton. There's lot I have to learn. OMGosh I so didn't know there were a whole variety of fruits. Like at least 5 types to apples and a whole variety to pumpkins and potatoes. I'm like what the..... and I came across a weird fruit called Biji Pot or something like that.

My trainee, an Aussie, could count faster than me. Seriously, like in a split second, which makes me so embarrassed as an Asian. Coz Asians are MEANT to do calculations quicker and efficiently. Ah well..... but it's a good job. 15 bucks per hour. Actually, technically speaking 13 bucks, after tax cut. Pretty good actually, given it's my first job.

I dunno why, but I have sleeping problems. I'm not stress, frustrated, nervous, scared. Nothing like that, no negative emotions. I don't have nightmares. I tried sleeping at 11pm but end up tossing and turning, looking at the ceiling in the dark, playing with my hp, staring blankly in the dark. Finally sleeping at around 2am.

Very, very strange.

Maybe it's the uni offers next Tues. But it's not troubling me in a huge way. What happens happens. Life goes on whether u like it or not. Maybe I need someone to sing me the lullaby song, to help me fall asleep.

Going joging later to clear my head, and burn the boost smooties and 3 spoons of choc vanilla.

Tennis Australia

January is by far the greatest month! Coz it's full of tennis! I heart so much!


WTA Medibank International in Sydney

WTA Next Generation Adelaide International in Adelaide

WTA Moorilla Hobart International in Hobart

WTA Hopman Cup in Perth

WTA Kooyong Classic in Melbourne

And low behold, Australian Open 08 in Melbourne!
Basically, there's tennis tournaments in all of the major capital cities.

Go! Ana Ivanovic! Win the Grand Slam title for me!! *flash eyelash*

One Fine Day!

One Fine Day, 2006 Korean Drama!
Was so addicted to it when I was back at Kuching. Sadly, there's none! none on youtube! Not even like an introduction! And forget hoping they will air it in Aus! I wanna watch it!! And also no form of DVD on sale! Sad!

Lovely drama! Great music tracks too! Most of the tracks are sad, melancholic songs. But nice! It's about the reunion of a brother and a sister. Which turn out to be not blood related siblings, and end up falling in love. I mean, C'mon, u don't fall in love with brother or sister u grew up with even if ur not blood related. It's so weird, weirdor!

The male actors are so hot and cute! Even the villain in the drama looks cute!

Leading actor-Gong Yoo

*Sigh* All this talk is making be feel so down. Sad.

NY Resolutions

New year means New Year Resolution. Listing my NY Resolutions a week after is not a good thing, but It's better late than never.

So, I decided to make a realistic NY Resolution, as I have a bad past record of constanly breaking my NY Resolution every single year.

Lets start with the classic resolution,
(1) lose weight.

I would make it more specific, 5 kilos! 5! How hard can it be?? The contestants on The Biggest Loser lose like 5 after maybe a month? If they can do it, I can too!

(2) No supper, strictly no!

I recently watch a Taiwanese talk show where they were interviewing this belly dancer on her slimness. And she replied 2 things. Firstly, no supper and secondly, exercising. So, I will do it, make it part of my resolution.

(3) Cleanse face twice per day!

Morning and night! No exception unless I run out of cleanser! Or the water pipe suddenly got polluted/cut/stinky/contaminated.

(4) Work out! No problem with this. I will not waste my time and go furthur.

(5) Get A's. No wait, Distinction since I'm going to uni. At least a distinction to all my units.

(6) Be nice-er to mum. More like patient.

(7) Drink more water. 4 cups per day sounds good to me.

I think that would do. Enough to keep me busy!

Aries

Horoscopes, I don't believe in these things. But, for the sake of fun, lets check mine out!

ARIES - The Aggressive

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be 'Right'. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world.

I find some inaccuracy about the above statement.

Aggressive? totally opposite
Excellent kisser? Uhh... dont think so.
EXTREMELY adorable? hehehe (awkward laugh) u guys will decide for urself. And why is extremely in bold letters?
Addictive? Loud? heh... count me out.
Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours? I don't think I would argue for hours. I'm not a debater. I normally give up after 10 minutes at least.

Love the last point, Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world. Agree 100%! They are! They really are! :)

*Hangs head*

I didn't get Accounting at Monash Clayton. I dunno how to feel! Well, I assume I didn't as no one called me up for an interview. I dunno if they somehow forgot or by chance I didn't fulfill all the requirement.

To be honest, I feel disappointed. All the year I hope for this course. Praying and hoping God will be good to me. I studied really hard for this, and end up not getting it! It sucks so badly.

Why oh why is life so unfair. Why do non-Christians get 99.95? Why do homosexuals get better than me? Why do people who swear get their wishes?

Why does God give these people a chance in life?

And here I am being the devoted Christian, forfeiting the thing that meant alot to me. I pray everyday, I go on a religious fasting for a month, I regular attended church with a cheerful heart, I serve God both in church and out, and this is what I get? I dunno.. U tell me what am I suppose to believe anymore? I know I shouldn't be questioning. I dunno about u, but life sucks so bad......

*Hangs head*. Yes it's true, I did not get it. But it's not the end of the world. Sometimes we have to learn to crawl up from such drop. The crawling up bit is the worst but it brings out the best in u!! It shows ur true colours and enables u to move forward.