Beware angry post ahead. Read at own risk!!

I HATE HIM!!!!!!! I FKN HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE IS SUCH A FKN JERK!!!!!!! HE IS A REAL D/H!!!!!

GRRRRR...

I'm talking about the stupid baker that I have to work with every single time. He is soooo irritating!!!!! Argh.. he is the Kyle Sandilands in our work place.

I HATE HIM!!

He looks at everything I do, corrects me EVERY SINGLE FKN TIME. He thinks I'm not capable. He questions me everytime!!!! AND!!!!!! AND!!! The thing that makes me soooo mad is that he tells my boss that I am not very capable YET!! And I found out it was his idea to make me put the trainee badge. He told me last Sat, that I should have a trainee badge because I dunno how to describe the cakes to the customers. I feel like screaming at him, but instead I just smile, nodded and walk away. He tells my boss I'm not quite ready yet, and said I should be still a fkn "trainee". The thing is he is not even the owner of this shop. Like wth. This is stupid.

Urgh... I hate u enough to hate u more.

So, now I'm brushing up on my knowledge. Logging into the shop website to check on the products, esp. the cakes, jotting down everything. I'm going to so kill it. I have had enough of this!!

And OMGosh, u guys should know this. Another thing that kills me is that he ALWAYS expect customers to come in and BUY STUFF. Obviously, he doesn't have an Asian mindset (Asians look/observe/research to find a better product before they spend cash on it). So, whenever a customer was just looking at things, he makes a huge fuss when customers walk out not buying anything. He makes it look like IT WAS MY FAULT that customers are not, quote, "contributing to sales".

ARGH!!

U tell me how I go through this every single day I'm at work. How?? I AM SO PISS every single time. BUT, I try not to let this effect me. Is it just me?? or is he just picking on me.

Dreams #3

I had a weird dream last night. It was not creepy, not scary, just a weird one. That's why I woke up quite early and couldn't sleep after. I was thinking about that dream which is very weird.

I dreamed about bathrooms again. My gosh... I don't know why. And then I dreamed that I'm going out with someone I know (no, I'm not telling). And it was very weird. Then there's this GB/BB thing, I don't exactly remember what to do with GB/BB but I only remember seeing their uniform, possibly a parade or something like that.

That's about it I remember. The funny thing is the guy that I was going out with (in my dream) is the guy that I have a little crush on. LOL. I was waking up feeling somewhat happy coz I wasn't aware it was a dream. So, I tot we were really going out in real life but it was a dream after all. Then, I lay in bed thinking about it.

In my dream, I can tell "we" were happily in love but yeah, don't think its possible. But yeah. I love these sorts of dream.

Love songs dedication

I love listening to love songs dedication on Mix 101.1. LOL. Call me old school, I just LOVE IT!!!!

It's not just the classic love songs that I love but also listening to others share about their love story, be it sad or happy ones, it's just so fascinating and interesting to get an insight of others love journey.

I go awwww at how others express their love for the other half and *sigh* at break-ups/relationship breakdown/divorce/separation etc. Sometimes I kinda wonder if this dedication thing actually works as in if the other person that u're making the dedication is really receiving the dedication coz it would be pure pointless if a dedication was made yet wasn't heard by the other person. Sometimes they just say names like David, Jane, Matt, Sarah etc and I wonder if that particular person is aware which David it is or which Sarah it is. So far, I've have not stumble upon a dedication for Sally. Serious, after religiously listening to the show, its like no, not one YET.

And, sometimes I come across guys talking about their "boyfriend" or girls talking about their "girlfriend". I admit I do get a hit in the head that these types of "relationship" exist. I'm not against "them" but sometimes its quite hard to believe that these people would be talking about their relationship so casually and so freely, for everyone to know. When I hear a guy talking about his "boyfriend", mentioning "he"/"him" instead of "her"/"she" I wonder if that is a guy or just a girl who sounds like a guy. But... I'm not here to judge.

Love songs dedication... I go to sleep listening to that. It makes me feel so peaceful. Nothing better than a few romantic songs and sweet tune to end my day. Every time, it does remind me of all the crushes I had in the past. All the crushes that are worth loving and all those that just makes me feel like a fool. It kinda make me think of how their lives have evolve, what are they on to now, their present relationship etc.

I love this phrase, which is the catch phrase for love songs dedication. It goes like this : "The one that is hardest to say it to is the one that needs to hear it most". Something along that line... oh how I *sigh* everytime I hear it.

Oh Me Oh My

I love this song!!



Tina Arena is superb. The song is called Oh Me Oh My. I simply love it. Her voice is sooooo sweet yet powerful.

I first heard this song on The Today Show and was simply blown away by the song. Imagine, half asleep on the couch, swallowing spoons full of oats down my throat and suddenly hear her sing this oh so beautiful song. I had a wow moment. Yeah.

I love the starting where she starts slow. Quite romantic with the background strings and wind instrument playing. I can so imagine two strangers in a formal setting, more like a ball room or a mutual friend's wedding. The guy in bold tux and girl in pretty, elegant dress and the guy asking to have this dance and they dance the night away, feeling at awe with each other as they held hands and stare into each others eyes. Dazzling lights, solid pearly floor, chandeliers, flowers as both of them are absorb in the moment, smiling at the same time as both of them knew something big is about to happen.

I can't help but smile whenever the song is playing. How I wish for that moment one day. But, I will continue to listen to the song and imagine, dream and ponder.

HAHA.. please.. a girl can dream okay???

My baby.

I finally got this!!

SE 530i!!!!!!!!!!!

I love!!!!! It's the best phone ever!!!! It's slick and slim!!! I love!!

I had a bit trouble getting it. I went to Glen 3 branch but they said its out of stock. So, went over to all phones and they are also out of stock. So, again, went to 3 branch at BH but it was too busy and I got tired of waiting so I left, thinking of going back after lunch. So after lunch, my brother wanted to go to Dick Smith, so off we went, and low behold there's the baby I was running across town for. So, I paid for it, and here I have it in my hot little hand.

It's pretty good.

Can Christmas come today??

I loathe work. Christmas hurry up and come please... I want my 1 month break now!!!!!!!!

Funny how sometimes I contradict myself. I wouldn't know what I would do without the extra pocket money. I mean yes, work is hard but I get paid which is good. For starters, I don't have to rely on my parents anymore, loosing their extra burden. And, I get to save, which to me is a good feeling when u see your bank account gaining ka ching every single time.

And I get to do things that I would not normally do if I wasn't "rich". I got a new haircut, I get to go to Thanksgiving, getting a new phone, sponsoring a child... etc... And I get to pamper myself.

So yeah. Work is hard, I won't lie but what kind of work isn't, I would like to soooo know. BUT right now... I'm really in holiday mood. Really!!

Results this Friday. At least, working gets me busy and focusing my brain and energy on other things.

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These things.

If there was one thing that I would eat and drink for the rest of my life, it would be zopf (wikipedia will tell u more), which is a milk and egg kinda plaited Swiss bread.

IT IS DIVINE!!!!

After work on Wed, my boss gave me one plaited loaf to bring home and I love it very much!! And since then, I have been taking zopf home every single time after work. It's not sweet, actually its tasteless but at the same time quite nice. So, it doesn't gross u out or give u a sugar high. It's quite buttery but not creamy sort of buttery. It taste like a croissant but croissants are alot more buttery and has a crunchy texture. This has a soft texture, kinda like ur normal breads. The thing I love about it is it is really nice on its own, no butter or jam needed. Actually, butter and jam spoiles the taste.

AND! If I had to drink something for the rest of my life, it would be (u guess it) COFFEE!!!!!! I could drink jugs and jugs of it. Okay.. kidding!! Maybe cups and cups of it. I am truly addicted to that stuff. I love the aroma, the smell, the taste, the kick of freshness and how it makes ur head go cuckoo (in a good way), the colour, the creamy bits on top. I love everything about coffee!!! If there was a rehab clinic for coffee addicts, I would be in for sure. LOL. I should get a coffee machine one day.

So, yes. Zopf and coffee for the rest of my life. I don't think I'll ever get tired of them. But, I could suffer from malnutrition tho with such unbalanced diet. But. Yeah.

About Kalkidan

I'VE SPONSORED A CHILD!!!!

Yes. Me. Sponsoring a child. Me!!

Okay... so here's the whole story.Yesterday, there's this Dare Women Conference that is held in church. Initially, I wasn't planning on going. I just wanted to stay at home and watch Better Homes and Gardens and any other Friday night movie. Plus, it was cold, quite unusual during end of November. Also, I never spent Friday night at home; it’s always and always is at OCF every Friday. So, for this once, I decided to stay home.

BUT! Then, mum asked me to go with her. So, without thinking, okay... I went to church. Dare Conference was quite good actually. The message was awesome. The theme was centered on "Christmas". So, we were given tips about how to better ur Christmas celebration and there was this talk about Christmas traditions. And then Nicole came to talk about the true meaning of Christmas.

Then, we got ginger bread cookies and COFFEE for refreshments. And then there was this after party for under 30s which mum (obviously) couldn't go (sadly...), so I went alone. Met Amanda (my ex LG leader.. sounds quite horrible but anywho) and the rest. Had slushies, FONDUE, marshmellows, fruits, but no coffee (young people need to be taught to drink coffee, instead of beer). LOL.

Then, it was time to go. And then so happens that this lady behind the compassion booths was a friend of mum's. So while mum was chatting off, I was browsing through the different sponsorship kids on the desk or should I say I had the CHANCE to browse through the things. U know how sometimes ur too shy to go up to have a look, and browse through the things in case they ask u to do something and u have to reject them?? But this time, I was comfortably looking at all the things, the kid's profile. And then mum suggested, why not sponsor one??

I think I ignored mum at first but then, hey! Great idea. Instead of tithing 50 dollars per fortnight, I could give 44 dollars per month!! yes, and then give another 6 dollars to OCF and 10 dollars for tithing. So, yeap, that's the story of how I got hook into sponsoring a child. I was thinking about it briefly before church but wasn't really very enthusiastic about it. LOL.

It feels so good now. I'm sponsoring a girl. I've always wanted a baby sister, so now, I have a daughter. LOL. Her name’s Kalkidan, pretty name right??

Meet Kalkidan. (I should probly take a better one)

At first, I didn’t care about the name; I didn’t even know this girl’s name. She’s 5 this yr, 6 next yr. I used to envy friends who have baby brothers or sisters, esp. baby sisters. And now I have a baby daughter. Should be interesting.

Thinking about it, God does work in miraculous ways. I really thank God for keeping me financially safe, given such huge turmoil in the economic arena. And also, wow! Right? So very unexpected!! God, sometimes U do surprise me.

Feels real good to make a difference. Speaking of difference, I feel very at awe (in a bad way) of how the US govt’ would spend billions and billions of dollars (apparently 3 billion) to save financial institutions from hitting bankruptcy than solving world poverty. WTH... doesn’t make sense. 3 billion just to save banks that maybe didn’t even deserve the 3 billion.

But, politicians will be politicians. Anyway, Kalkidan, I LOVE UR NAME!!! It’s so funky, trusts me, and definitely beats Beyonce or Gwyneth or Rhianna. Hopefully one day we’ll meet on FB or Myspace or FS or some new social sites in ur generation to come.

I’m SOOOOOOOOOO excited!! Oh me gosh... guess when her b'day is??? It's a special date. No... not 22 March, not THAT coincidence. It's 28 Febuary!!!! I'm shocked as much as u guys are. But I'm sure its going to be a very special date for a very special girl. :)

God, u never seem to amazed me more. It was a random pick, yet so many surprises. And! I have another item on my prayer list!! Wuhoo!!

Damn. Rhys won.

WTF... Rhys won. Rhys won Make me a Supermodel.

It's not fair!! It's just not fair!! Shanina is much much much way better than Rhys. I don't want to see Rhys in Magazines, Billboards, catwalks or advertisement. I WANT TO SEE SHANINA!!! I would rather see pages of Shanina than Rhys. And male models never appeal to me at all!! It's a female profession after all, just swarmed with male wannaby models.

URGH..... What is wrong with Australia?? Are they blinded enough to not see Shanina is better in poses and sexy and confident in catwalks. Her Make me a Supermodel portfolio is sooooo much better than Rhys, infact better than all the other contestants. Her shots are soooo confident and hot and NOT AWKWARD at all!! Since day one, she doesn't look like just a "contestant" but like a supermodel.

I'm sure the judges are disappointed by this. I'm sure they wanted Shanina to win.

There better not be an upset in Australian Idol this Sunday. Wes has got to win!!!

Relaxing work.... at last.

Work today was very relaxing today because it was raining.

I had to do an extra shift for Yesool who could not work that arvo. So yeah, of course I willingly help out given that there's nothing else I have to do. But, waking up at a freaking 7am, and found out it was raining and windy and drizzling, I just felt so sulky that I have to work, not only that, I have to WALK in the rain to work.

So, I hop back into bed. But then my boss called me and asked me to come in 30 minutes earlier. The bed was so warm and fuzzy and cozy, I didn't want to get out of bed. Ah wells...

But like I said, work was very relaxing. The rain means less customers means less work. I had to even pretend to be busy. But meh, definitely was relaxing, looking outside, it was dark and the continuous pouring of rain was very relaxing. LOL. And I had the OCF Clayton CD song in my head, especially the song "Audience of One". So, I was humming to the song in my head.

There were a lot of customers asking for coffee. There was this customer who I think is on drugs. He looked quite wasted.

I have a blister under my foot. It effing hurts and the funny thing is I was in sneakers. LOL.

AND Yeah to my baby brother who has finish 1/5 of his VCE exam. LOL. Go smash that Chinese paper!!!!! Proud of u bro!!!!

Proud owner of valuable assets

I think I've got large boobs.

LOL. Sorry for everyone who has to read this and for those who googled "boobs" and somehow managed to come into my blog with the idea of looking for something more "enticing", all of u are perverts. Yup, that's right perverts.

But honestly, I think my boobs are large for a 19 yo. Okay, time for a funny yet disturbing story, I was walking at the Glen one day and I was wearing this baby tee which u know kinda "showed off" my assets. It wasn't showing any cleavage or anything, just a simple baby tee. And as I was leaving, 2 guys were heading towards my direction and one of the guys whispered something to me. At first I wasn't aware but then I realised what the pervert was saying and I was like (of course) wth...

Okay, I wasn't sure whether he said this : "Nice tits" or not. But it sounded quite like this. Wth... wth... wth...I wasn't expecting to grab any "unnecessary" attention. The weird thing is I wasn't exposing much, it was JUST A BABY TEE!!! NOT A LOW CUT TOP!! I bet those two perverts must be discussing about my boobs after that. Like wth... wth... wth...

But u know, later I felt kinda proud?? ><

Hmm... I think I must have shooed everyone from ever visiting my blog ever again.

Oh yeah, freshly cut head.



It makes me look ALOT younger. Do I look like my age tho?? Cannot really tell from this pic tho. LOL. I look so cute!! I think I look 16 or possibly 15. Oh wtever!! When I have long hair, I look more mature. People say I'm 21 and then when I have short hair I look like 16. Tell me what all of u think!!

Oh yeah, Sonia u tagged me ages ago. So... here is my without make-up pic. Altho, I think I cheated a little with this new hair-do and pout. But zero make-up!!

Haircut!

I've chopped my hair. It's very short now. It's very very short now. And I am liking it!!! :P

The length is until my neck at the back and gradually long at the front. The thing is my fringe is quite shortish. It looks quite "hard", like the streaks are glued together. But, I can always pin it up. Infact, I look better that way. And I would look "softer" once I wash my head.

You would not believe how much it cost, but wtever. I like the outcome, its not usual that I end up liking my hair after the trip to the saloon.

I'll post pics soon.

Btw, I'm leaning towards SE K530i.



I was initially going for SE W910i but its a slide phone and I've read others saying that it comes of loose overtime. I've done my full research and have read quite a few of good reviews. Infact, most of what I read is excellent review. I think its a good phone with a reasonable price. $149 on 3 prepaid. Pretty reasonable? Yes? But now, I'm kinda leaning towards Optus since almost everyone I speak to is on Optus. Oh. WTHeck. There's better value for money on 3.

First things first, work more and save.

Why can people be so irritating??

Stupid baker!!!! I am sooooOOOooOOOOOooooooo piss with him!! SoooooOOOoooOOOOoooo mad at him!!

I dunno why he is soooOOOOOooooOOooooo sarcastic!! I don't know!! He makes my blood boil!!

Okay.. just today, at the start of work, I was being friendly, saying Hi to everyone at work before work starts, its like the norm there, saying Hi before working.

And I was saying "HI" to the baker, and the baker was being so very stupid, that he repeated my "Hi" again and again, oh.. let me recall, 3 effing time. Then, he said that I was not enthusiastic enough and did an example of my "unenthusiastic hi". I just rolled my eyes and shrugged it off.

I was like wth... u're mad that I did not say it properly?? shouldn't u be the least happy that I said Hi to u?? It's not everyday that I'm in a happy mood, and not everyday u get to see the "happy" me okay?? NOT EVERY DAY!! He expects us to be happy everyday. SO DON'T EXPECT ME TO ACT HAPPY OR BE HAPPY JUST FOR THE SAKE OF PLEASING U!!

So, I completely ignored him for the rest of the day, or should I say we ignored each other, but wtever. right?? Even the boss could sense some tension between us.

He is soooOooOOOOOooooo irritating!! No wonder his life is so miserable. Someone should teach him how to be less irritating. Urgh... AND AND!! He keeps making these comments about my degree. EVERY SINGLE THING I DO, be it cleaning the tables, serving customers, washing dishes.. EVERY SINGLE BLARDY THING!! He relates it to my degree. He makes these comments like, " You're at uni, u should know all these stuff" or " You're at uni, u should be SMARTER". Sometimes he questions my degree, " Hey did u know that blablabla in the Finance industry?". If I wasn't busy, rushing around doing my job, I would sit and debate with him. But wtever. right?

Also, he acts like he's the owner of the shop, like. NAH-uh... first, the shop is a proprietorship, IT IS NOT A PARTNERSHIP!! And he acts like he owns the place. So wrong!!! He thinks his decisions are final. YES!! including employees in decisions is good, BUT!! He makes all the final decision in the shop, including the Christmas goodies just out this week, the photo poster, and gluten free stuff.

So... yes... ignoring him actually made me feel better about everything. Two can play this game, but I'll play it wisely. I'm just going to do my job super well and prove to all of them who underestimate me, and still doesn't trust me YET!! I'm just going to do what I need to. And let them see my full potential. I believe in myself, that's all that matters.

I hope I don't sound like a bimbo above. I think I sound more smart?? LOL. Studying business can come into handy in business debates. LOL.

Taking advantage of end-of-year sale

I'm getting a new phone, because my brother has a new one.

*Background noise*

Haiya... so kiasu meh?? LOL. Beh song arh???

I'm changing to 3 as well. Stupid Vodaphone!! I hate u!!! Seriously...

But, I ask everyone and no, most of them are on optus, not 3. Imagine me going around saying this: "R u on 3??" I think its a cool phrase,"R u on 3?". So, I'm still contemplating coz if no one else is on 3, then it would be a waste. But apparently, most monash students are on 3 or optus. Like the majority of them.

But u get more value for money on 3. I dunno... or maybe alot of my friends are working at 3 and kinda influence my decision.

BTW, phones I have in mind...

1. Nokia 6500 slide
2. Sony Ericsson W910i
3. Nokia 6300
4. Samsung U900
5. Sony Ericsson W660i
6. Sony Ericsson 530i
   

I'll add on once I do my research. Google it to see how the phone above looks so lazy to find pics and upload them.

The potter and the clay.

Today, I knew I was going to get very emotional at church. I warned myself not to cry on the way to church. As I walked into the auditorium, I was calm and collected. Kerrie Anne Butler was the worship leader for today.

In the middle of the worship session, there was a break and then one of the network pastors, Justin stood up and asked if anyone needed any prayer and asked them to come forward so the leaders could pray for them. I wanted to go up but u know... fear got the better of me. But it did not bother me much.

Then, in the middle of the praying session. A song came up, a song that touched me so deeply in my heart. I don't know the name of the song, but it goes like this.

" I love You Lord, You rescued me, You were all that I want, You're all I need"

The lyrics to this song seriously pulled a string. I closed my eyes, hot tears were coming out as I reflect the past coming week. This week has been quite overwhelming. Since exam period, my heart has not settled one bit, I'm over-worried, over-stressed about the whole situation.

The word "rescued" especially, rescue in past tense, made me realized all the good things God has been doing in my life, all the many blessings He has given me. Giving me awesome people in my life, arms and hands, giving me this degree, all the help and guidance and comfort, a job, all the answered prayers... etc, its just so overwhelming. I realize all this time, I've asked God for this and for that and just today, God opened my eyes to see what an idiot I have become to forget where I've come from and how good God is.

The message was something I needed to hear. It's about God moulding our life. Paul talks about Jeremiah and how he fully trust God. He talked about three points.

1. God works
2. God creates
3. God re-creates

He said God not only create us but he also re-create us. The word "re-create" stood out for me. He did not create us then abandon us but he carefully mould us into something for full value of use. Paul uses the analogy for a potter and clay. The potter symbolises God and we (of course) are the clay. The potter intricately shape and mould the clay to make it pretty to look at, useful for its main purposes be it a flower vase or an ornament. If he fails to make the clay pretty, does the potter throw the clay away and use a new set of clay?? NO. A good potter would use the "failed" clay again and again until he is satisfy with the outcome.

It is same with our God. He not only create us just for the sake of creating, but he re-create us at the same time. I know there may be seasons of life where I would feel neglected, forgotten but today, God reminded me that He's still here and I don't have to worry, that this is the time where God is "re-creating" me. But then why do I not help but feel worried?? I guess its human nature to feel that way.

God is the potter, we're the clay. Thank you Jesus for revealing yourself, for keeping me on track and forever looking out for me. Thank you, I couldn't ask for any better. Amen.

U think life is easy?

Today, work was one word... horrible.

First, I was dead tired, I could barely open my eyes and my brain is very much half dead. All because of sleeping at around 1am the night before after getting home from Thanksgiving and ended up only having approximately 5 hrs sleep.

Work started okay. I was kinda disappointed that I have to wear the "trainee" badge again. I was like oh no... not again. I don't really understand why I'm still branded a "trainee". I DONT!! Not like I don't know how to do my job okay!!! I am very capable and very confident about every aspect of my job. YES! I am abit slow! YES! I am average as compared to other staff! YES! I am not as good as the others but I know what I'm supposed to do inside out. I don't know why they still don't fully trust me given that I've work there close to 6 mths. It's just so demotivating to have to wear the "trainee" badge again. It just make my level of motivation go from level 9 to around level 3. That's how deliberating this is. But, I try not to let my emotions get the better of me. So, I just carried on like it didn't matter. But, I'm being reminded when first-time customers said: "ooh.. trainee eh??" But I just shrugg and move on.

Everything went alright until I accidentally burnt the microwave oven. Yup, I burnt the microwave oven. There was smoke everywhere, thank God it did not go into flames, if not I'm in huge trouble. It was super humiliating okay. At that point, I was so disappointed at myself. I feel like an idiot. I feel like a fool to think that I would be so stupid to not think before I do anything. The customers were joking about it, lady boss was obviously not happy and the baker made a comment that made me feel worst. My mood went downhill after that. I was so upset with everything that I wanted to just leave. But, no... I had to stay and breath and fake a smile. And! You have no idea how freaking hard it is!! Seriously, my mood was like nothing ever imagine. My sudden mood change surprise myself as well. I was mad at myself, disappointed that they still don't trust me, I wanted to cry, there were tears in my eyes but I hold back.

So, that was my stupid effing shitty day. Sometimes, I feel like I want to tell them that I cannot do Saturdays anymore because I have OCF on most Fridays and I always reach home at around 12. So, it would be quite hard for me to get up, ready to work on Saturday.

And just yesterday, I had to do my re-enrolment. I had to choose my subjects for nt year. And all of my core Accounting units needed the prerequisite of AFF 1120. And I'm really afraid I might fail that subject. And if I fail it, I have to repeat it next year and I cannot go on to my other units. It's really scary. Lord, I don't want to fail it, just please let me just passed it. And of course having to defer my Management exam is quite frustrating to think I have to sit it again this January.

Urgh.. I'm really worried. Really stress. Lord, please save me. I don't know what to do. Why is life full of uncertainties?? Wouldn't it be better if life has a map and a instruction manual? I'll just sleep on it and pray about it.

Today.

Today was quite a busy day. I think I was out of home for almost all day. I woke up at blardy 6am, and couldn't go back to sleep, too excited about today and tmrw I supposed. Anyway, I called Ali to schedule a meet up with her to discuss about the Ambassador program since I miss the welcome event yesterday. So yup, met her at 11am and discussion goes for an hour or so. Then at 1pm, I was supposed to go to Harsh's bollywood party. But we were asked to bring a $5 gift to exchange with each other, so I brought a packet of bath soap. But because I didn't wrap it yet, I hurriedly went home (more like bus home) to quickly wrap it. Then at 1pm set out (again) to go to Harsh's house. And guess who I bump into on the train!! Sarah Namour!! I bump into her!! Coincidence!! So, yeah, we chat until we reach Glenny and then I took another bus to Harsh's house.

We had heaps of fun!! First, we watch a bollywood movie, can't remember the name, can't even spell it or pronounce it anyway if I even by chance remember it. The movie has a nice story line (very lazy to describe it) if u ignore the wackyness and weirdness of it. Then, we had spagetti and something and a yummy sweet ginger thing. Then, we were assigned a team task to dance to a bollywood song. It was soooo much effing fun!! Then we swap gifts and I got bracelet from Misty. She got it from China.

Oh I forgot!! I have henna on my left hand. Harsh did this.


Pretty?? I hope I don't get told off at work on Sat. But its all natural stuff, no chemicals.

Then, at night, went to church for Leader's summit. Actually, didn't intend to go but because mum and dad are going and the church is just near Harsh's place, I just pop in to save my parent's any trouble. Leader's summit really pump me up, they were talking about 2009 and u know, there's so many uncertainties about 2009, but Senior Pastor Mark Conner was talking about the how to lead in turmoil situation. He said that its not certainty that all Leaders need but confidence that it will get there. Also, we had a praying session in groups of three and one of the lady prayed for me, so it was really nice and comforting.

So yeah, that was my day.. Oh, I have to blog about my last CG outing yesterday. Next time.... maybe.

Today at BoxHill.

Today, I ask mum to bring me to Box Hill. I wanted to see if I can find any pretty and cheap dresses for Thanksgiving. I have blogged that I'll be wearing the yellow floral dress that my cuz, yung che che gave to me. But since I have nothing to do and mum needs to do grocery shopping, I hop of to Box Hill to see if I can find anything.

Most of the shops there have very bad style!! It's not my style at all. Coz BoxHill is very Asian, and u know Asians are known for their Ahlianess and girlyness as seen in Japs and Taiwanese, I don't find it very appealing. But I came across this sweet pink dress which is quite pretty, but didn't try it on. And another dress which is blue with pink straps which is quite pretty as well, but didn't try it on. Wondered around BoxHill and then made the final decision to return to try the sweet pink dress but the shop was close by then. So.. yup, u guess it, left empty handed.

But, oh wells.. I've already decided on the yellow floral dress anyway. Besides, I get to save up my cash AGAIN. Me and my saving up... don't blame me!! We're in a financial crisis now!! And "presumably" headed towards recession. So, saving up is potentially the best action atm!!

Got mum mango iced green tea from Bubble Cup. But, she didn't like it, she commented: "Too sour and too bland". Talk about gratitude!! So, in the end I drank half and mum drank half. And then, she complained that I feed her bad stuff and make her feel bloated. Then, I said: "I'm giving u ur daily dose of antioxidant for fuller and clearer skin." LOL.

So, here is what I predict my week to be.

Tmrw, going to the salon at Mt to get my eyebrows done for Thanksgiving, then work. Tuesday, going to the Glen to buy bangles and rings and cuffs, anything that makes me sparkle and anything that lifts my outfit coz its not very formalish, hope they will let me in. LOL. And, I almost forgot, a 5 dollar gift for Harsh's house party on Thursday. Wednesday, work in arvo. Thursday, Harsh's house party in the arvo and night, Karaoke at Glen with mates. Friday, Thanksgiving!!

Excruciating month.

Exams are finally over. Quite relieve actually but part of me just feels worried about the whole thing. And plus officially, I haven't completed all of my exams since I deferred Management. So, quite worried about how that will turn out. Also, I'm really afraid I'm going to fail Accounting exam. No joking, very very worried about that. I go to sleep thinking about it and then wake up thinking about it. I don't want to think of what if I fail, what if I have to repeat it next year. But it just keeps coming up. But... the other part of me is just reassuring me that everything will go good.

This is going to be an excruciating one month, before exams are out.

On a lighter note, my other exams were good. I think I HDed it. That's why if I fail one unit, I'm seriously going to stab myself. But, looking forward to Thanksgiving and meeting up with the girls. Can't believe this year is almost gone. I had to fill in the date for my last exam and holy gosh... its November already!! So, I had a wow moment in exam. LOL. Imagine that!!! In a way, its a good thing.

I am amazed at my cousin's five year old son, Ryan. Pardon me, I don't know what to call him in terms of Chinese ways of calling people. U know how us Chinese have different methods of calling close relatives, like there's a different term for uncle, aunt, niece, nephew etc, and different term for different sides as in mum's side of the family and dad's side of the family.

It's quite complicated. But I call him Ryan, like duh.. what else would I call him as. Wonder what he calls me?? He calls my mum gu po, but mum dislikes people calling her gu po. She says it makes her sound old. But my ah chim (which is my aunt at my dad's side, my dad's brother's wife), said once that she would be really happy if someone calls her gu po.

Anyhow, the reason why I'm amazed is he has got a blog!! I was like what is a 5 yo doing with a blog?? And he writes really well for a 5 yo!! I only started blogging yr 12 maybe!! And he's starting at 5. I salute u... man!! But really, I never really talk to him ever. Like never okay. Well, when I'm back home, he's still 1 and u don't expect a 1 yo to speak much yes?? Don't think he remembers us but maybe he does. Well... he says in his blog that he remembers us but maybe not specifically.

As much as I hate to admit it, I do miss them. I used to hate their teasing, making fun of this and that, but I do miss them. It's true, Asians are not very family-oriented people. Australia has help me to escape all the unnecessary family squabbles. But, kinda think about them once in a while, about how each and everyone of their lives has evolve into, what they are up to, are they happy or sad. Besides, we're still a family. I still think about my aunt regularly, my er yi (mum's second sis). And of course my da jiu and er jiu up at 29th mile, I wonder how his life is now. Occasionally, I think about how all my cousins are doing, those working and those studying atm. And of course those with families. I wonder if they ever thought of us. But, I don't care.

Speaking of which, my cousin Onn Onn koko is getting married this coming Nov. Looks like we'll be missing it. But, really happy. About time koko... about time.

Fat!! die... Fat!!

I think my waist line is increasing. I can feel it, I can feel the excess baggage. I dunno why all the fat tends to concentrate on my waist area. No where else but my waist area. Exams have definitely made me fatter and depressing but somehow have made me feel smarter. But really, I dunno if I've packed on the pounds coz I don't have a weighing machine and choose not to have one. My jeans don't feel any tighter but I feel very out of shape, its just one of those moments.

But, I will start jogging once more when exams are done and get myself back into shape before Thanksgiving.
Have to start the burning process once exams are done. I think I look like a guy from behind coz of my broad shoulders and strong back. If I have short hair, I would be mistaken for a boy. LOL.

Will definitely have to start jogging once exams are done. I like it want my heart pumps blood and oxygen to the other parts of my body, it makes me feel alive and happy? Maybe get Jane to join me. :)