OK I'm buying the Nikon S550. No more beating around the bushes... no more. Reasonable price, packed with features. Waiting for my next pay day. :) Hope they have marked down prices. :)

I went over to Sars this arvo to pick up Alka's overdue pressie. HAHA. Thx hun. I love it to bits!!! We joked about how Alka associates us with colours, for example, she associates Sars with the purple colour so all her gifts are purple and mine are brown. LOL. It was good to chat away. Sars's cat, Milky died two days ago. 14 years of good life I supposed. She showed me where Milky was buried. Hah. Then... I had homemade pizza and pumpkin muffins straight from the oven. Yum!! Her mum feeds us good whenever we go over. LOL. Then, Sars had to go get flowers for her cat. But, I decided to go home coz I had tummy ache and also to study.

Man... so hook with the PCD's new song Hush Hush. So catchy. As well as Jess Mauboy's Because. Damn. for once an Australian artist which isn't emoish or funky and has RnB feel.

It's Friday!! It's Friday!! :) Hmm... should I go to Sarah's tmrw???

I'm still searching for a digital camera. I need to get one before my lil bro's formal (see how good a sis I am???)

It's so hard to decide on which to buy. There's sooo many out there from brands, mps, zooms, to features etc. I don't mind the price but it needs to be reasonable for the hip pocket. I've been searching on the net but really with every pro comes a con so in the end all of the cameras turn out similar. The names of the cameras really turn u off from continue searching, they are soo long and confusing and all the names look quite similar.

How?? By chance I might not get it even before WC. But good then coz mid year sales are coming.

Currently, I'm hook onto Canon Powershot A2000 IS Digital Camera. Google it if u like. I'm reading reviews on the net to see if its a good buy. The price is also fairly ok for me. As well as Nikon COOLPIX S550 Digital Camera. Good price as well with packed features. :) (Also, because Wang Lee Hom is the face of this camera in Taiwan but not like I like him better than Jay ok??). LOL.

Its so freezing... and I'm going for a shower, warm shower. :) And then straight to studying.

DONE!

YES!! AIS test finally done. It was so-so. It was a computer quiz. I read through the quiz 5 frigging time before bringing the nerves to submit it. It was a relief.

Now, I'm waiting for my Acnt tute. So tempted to skip it and go home and DO NOTHING!!! Yes! I can finally go home straight after my class coz I've been staying back to finish MYOB with Monique.

Arh... finally I can study of exams in peace. OK... gtg.

FOF was a huge success for our cell. Initially, we were quite worried about the number of people who turned up but it actually when better than we thought. I was worried that my friends would find it awkward. But, I'm very glad they participate in the games and had an awesome time. I even got to have a chat to them about OCF and what we are about which is what I set out to do. Also, I promoted abit of WC. So, I'm very happy about that. Now, I'm praying that they come for WC. All in all, it was good. Good food, good company, good conversations, good laughter. Thumbs up team!!!

I can't study now. No mood to study yet I have a test on Tuesday. *sigh* When when when will it ever end??? I'm freaking tired due to waking up for Leading Edge. Actually, I couldn't go coz my bro's car was full but turns out some people pulled out last minute. So, I went. I was sooo freaking sleepy ok??? But, Leading Edge wasn't as bad. It turned out ok. Was it worth it??? I would say so myself. I didn't have the mood to say anything so I didn't say anything except a few hellos, goodbyes, answer a few questions from the pastor, put in one word sentences etc...

Then, after that, I was soooo tired even tho I slept but still tired. I dunno why... alot of things on my mind yet nothing is bothering me. But... hopefully all ends well.

Today, I saw him. He sat next to me. What a coincidence, right next to me. I dare not say a word, hoping he would not see me. But, 20 minutes ride.... he saw me, or so I think he did. He definitely did. I would be a ghost if he did not see me.

I didn't say a word... am I kicking myself for it??? Yes and No. Sigh... 20 minutes wasted. 20 minutes of chance wasted. But, I wasn't in the mood to talk anyway.

I asked God, God, it cannot be that simple. Yes, it is a coincidence. Coz I never take that bus as I am always taking the earlier one and second, he doesn't have classes as often. And I was planning to skip the tute since my lecture got canceled due to strike. So, bumping into him would be one in a million.

But God, it cannot, should not be that simple. Can it???

*Again edited for privacy.

Darn I'm sick. I hate hate hate being sick. Its not the best feeling when u have assignments due and exams around the corner. It brings back bad memories of last yr's final. *shivers*

MYOB sucks. But, better now than in the future.

I got back my Corp Law assignment. I failed. Don't u just hate it when u put in ur all and this shit happen. I spend more time and energy on this assignment than my other assignments. Shit, hope I did better on my other assignments. Things like this really demotivate u.

But, again. It's not the end of the world. No, its not.

Darn. I need a haircut. My bob is growing out. LOL. But I kinda like the length I have now. I cut my fringe a week ago and it looks very "sharp". Quite nerdyish. Ah wells... let's all be nerdy during exam time!!!

I think I'm slowly becoming a shopaholic.

After church, we went to Westfield Doncaster to have lunch, also, a chance to use the Eastlink tollway, also, to bring us 3 "san ba lau" to Doncaster Westfield, also, to celebrate Mother's day.

HAHA. OMGsh... Westfield Doncaster is soooo much better than Chaddy. The tiles are so sparkly. You could literally see ur reflection in it. Everything was glittery and shiny. HAHA. love the decor in there. The food court look like a masterpiece, the sitting, lighting (I love the lighting!!), the arrangement, it looks like an art show. Even the toilets look too superb to be a toilet. Thumbs up for the architecture!! And the best thing is the parking detector lights. The sensor lights turned from green to red when a car is parked at the spot. So, u save time searching for a spot. So cool man...

The food there was much pricy than I thought. But I was soooo hungry coz it took us ages to search for a food court. And by the time we got there, I could just eat about anything. LOL.

The shops were not that special. Most of the shops can be found at any other shopping centre except those really high class boutiques. OMGsh there is Breadtop at Westfield Doncaster. I love the cakes in Breadtop!!! I brought a bag, only because my other bag was completely spoiled and at risk of being torned apart the next time I use it. Plus, it was on sale, so why not. And because mum "encouraged" me too. HAHA. She end up borrowing it. I saw a funky jacket with pockets and all in pink!!! It wasn't pricey but mum said no. Don't u love it when there's someone there to stop u from going too far.

But, guess it will be my last time at Westfield Doncaster as it takes a while to get there. Plus, there's always the Glen if I ever needed anything. LOL.

Relax.

It's almost 12 and I'm still up.

That is amazing coz every Saturday I will be tired by 8, and in bed by 10. BUT!! Today.... oh... today is a wonderful day. That is because I'VE GOT NO WORK TODAY!!! Not only that, NO MORE SAT SHIFT!!!

For once, I didn't need to set my alarm. I slept straight till 10.30 in the morning. The feeling is just great. No worries, no headache, no puffy eyes, no straining muscles, no need to wake up in pitch black or worst below 10 degrees temperature. It was just plain awesome!!! HAHA.

It's such a beautiful day, metaphoric wise la (it was quite a dull day actually... LOL.) It was quite a relaxing day. No stress wtsoever. It was a slow, simple, easy Saturday. I watched abit of cartoon and then watched abit of video hits then I did abit reading while listening to Jay. Gosh... studying is sooo easy with Jay in my ear. It was a very casual, relaxing Saturday. I was supposed to go to Leading Edge but then I told God that if I'm able to wake up in time (or if God is able to wake me up. LOL.) then I will go but God didn't wake me up. So, I end up not going. LOL. I'll go next time. promise.

Yesterday, at OCF, Chee Kai was talking about Missions to NT. Honestly, to me, I'm not really excited about it. It didn't put any thought in my mind. It didn't stir up anything. It's just that there is a feeling that God wants me to stay here and not join this mission. I dunno why... but I'm not weighing up the pros and cons and if I'm not doing that then it is a signal that I'm not interested. I feel like its not the time yet. I'm not worried about the finances but just feel I'm not ready for this. Time will tell. Maybe there's something bigger install???

I've been appointed as treasurer for Cocopops. More like I volunteer myself since everyone is so scared to take up the role and because I'm the only one doing finance. HAH. Time to put my skills into full use.

I asked this question to 3 people. "How was ur WEEK?" and they tot I said "How's much is ur WEIGHT?" and all their responses was "u guess and see." And of course leaves me with blank stares.

Wth. How the heck did week become weight??? Quite embarrassing ok?? Must be weird for them as well. HAHA.

:)

I'm thinking of getting a camera. HAHA pay day really increases the temptation of spending. But, which one??? Maybe Olympus brand coz our family has been using Olympus since forever. I need one to start capturing shots of my life. Gosh... the amount of shots lost are uncountable but memories still remain. I can go bold and get an SLR??? Maybe not. I still cannot master a simple digital cam. LOL. I might get one before Winter Camp.

Oh wait. How bout that heel I've been eyeing since ages ago??? sigh. Oh wells... will see how I go.

Work today wasn't as bad.

Apart from going red over the phone (long story... not going to extend much), it was alright. A customer praised my coffee, soy latte to be exact, which yeah, I feel very honored myself. Not like u get something like that everyday. So it was good. Everything was smooth sailing today.

A lot of people r leaving the job, especially those that have been there a long time ago. It actually serves as a motivation for me to step up a knotch in what I do.

Then, after that I had to rush to uni to help out with mid-week social events. TBH, I was nervous about it. I dunno why. But, it bothered me for the whole day. But, it turned out alright. It was chocolate making day and goodness, fun fun FUN!!! It was good to be in control this time round. I know, control freak I am. HAHA. We made chocolates, messy but fun!!!! I guess the mess makes it fun!!! And we made these cute origami boxes from scrapped paper to put the chocolates. Gosh... it look very very pretty and high class. HEHE. I made a box and gave it to mum as an early mother's day gift.

I talked to heaps of people who are international students and the majority of them are postgrad students. I also bumped into Gwen!!! So... we chatted. Also, I met 2 exchange students from Monash South Africa, so that was amazing. One girl told me she's doing masters coz she couldn't get a job due to the GFC. And she's doing banking and finance. I was like shit. really??? Coz everyone keep telling me that GFC will have a huge impact on us business people but I refused to believe that. I always thought these jobs are pretty high in demand. But, it really is not a huge concern to me. Probly by the time I graduate, the situation might be better.

Now, I really want to continue organising such events. I had fun. It was good to step out of my comfort zone and really speak up. But, work. Stupid work. Today I purposely finish early just for that. It wasn't supposed to clash until my boss last minute decided to change my shift. Not fair u know???? I was sooo eager. Ah wellss... one experience is better than none right??

I'm starting to be lazy. I'm 2 weeks behind my uni work due to hectic assignments and tests. I guess finishing 3 assignments in a row really drives out ur energy and sucks out all ur motivation.

DARN CARLTON LOSS BY 4 MARKS.

:(

We could have made it. Could have made it with the final kick. But, no.


Btw, I love the new Fantasy series, Merlin. It looks like a good series.

Friday, it was OCF girl's nights.

For some reason, I did not look forward to it. I have had a very tiring week. 3 assignments. Enough to drive me nuts. Everyday, vigorous typing in front of the laptop, straining my eyes to the laptop (shit, my eyesight is bound to get worst), reading journals after journals, bookmarking every possible article/journal website, countless times looking at the online Q manual just to either get the format right or to get the referencing right.

The girl's nights, I didn't enjoy it. My brother asked me on the way back what rating I would give it. I gave an honest answer, 4/10. He was shocked. I'm sure he's going to report back to the committee. HAH! One way of finding if things work, save the trouble of asking someone else and ask ur sister!!! LOL. What a brother he is!! But, whatever, they have to get reviews about it anyway. But, really, I did not find it enjoyable.

I have no idea why. I just didn't fit in. I didn't feel the atmosphere. Maybe it was stupid public transport (I absolutely detest it with all my guts), or maybe it was a tiring week, or maybe its just thinking of darn work the following day or maybe it was my own stupid attitude.

The girls were chatting away, I was dreaming off. I tried to get into their conversations but regardless, I gave up trying. It's just everything I say did not seem amusing or interesting. It's like I have nothing in common with these girls. I dunnoo.. isit because I've lived in Australia for so long that I've lost touch of my "Asianness"?

But, amazingly God spoke to me. I realised how much I've put God second. I find I've slipped God behind and my concentration has switch to other things. Darn, it is hard being a Christian I have to admit. Yes, I still prayed to God every night, thanking him for strength and guidance. I occasionally still listen to praise songs and worship God in my own time. But, God open my eyes to see that I'm slowly consumed with everything else. I only have quiet time with my spare time, with time when I have nothing else to do. To me, that is putting God second, which I never ever intended to do.

But it was good just being able to focus on God for just 15 minutes. I didn't take anything away from the speaker. It was a huge messy blob to me, with different random things thrown together to make one message. But, I could feel God's presence. It was great to know He's still there when I'm at my worst.

Sometimes I do ask God to make me a brave person, not shy and timid. But God said, this is who I created u to be. And this is what u will be. I cannot be loud like the rest, I cannot be approachable or sociable or talkative like the rest, but I know I'm comfortable being me. Every time I think of that, I cannot help but tear up coz God made me as a special person. A person that one day will do great things.

This was an edited version. More things to keep from all of u. HAHA.

Work today was shit hell. My goodness.

First, I had trouble waking up. It was quite scary actually coz when I woke up, it was already quite bright and I tot I forgot to wake up. I came home from OCF at 12.30 and only got 6 hrs sleep. So, the first few hours, my mind was switch off. It was shit blurry. I made a big, huge mistake which is still playing in my mind. DARN. I'm going to get scolded by my boss next time I go in.

Customers seems to be shit today. Some were very impatient, some were not very friendly. It's jus a bad day really. For no reason, what they say was soooo blury. I couldn't clearly listen to what they were saying coz either the coffee machine was buzzing or someone is speaking over me. There was this customer who told me off coz he was waiting to be serve when I was busy wrapping the gluten free things. It was my fault, no doubt, I accept that but he was yelling at me and shit. Man. I had stomachache in between so it was quite uncomfortable for me.

Yeah. In short, it didn't go well.

But, it was my last Saturday shift. I kinda like the Saturday shift but I guess the thought of sleeping in is a good one and no need to hurry home from OCF helps as well. Plus, I can go to Leading Edge now that I don't have to work on Saturday.

I went shopping after that to give off some steam from work and from the hectic work. But shopping did not help. We went to mum an mine's favorite shop. I love love love that shop its very pretty and very very glittery but affordable things in there. I brought a woollen dress for winter and a satin top and a pair of blue jaded earrings. But, it still didn't feel good.

It's 1.30 in the morning, I'm completing my CBF report. It's bloody freezing. I'm hungry. My eyes are tired and sleepy. But, I have to finish this.

For some reason I'm feeling peace. I'm listening to Jay Chow. Oh Jay Chow, your songs are so calming, so mesmerising. LOL. I feel just in my own world with all his songs. I tot my bro's still up but everyone has slept. Sitting in the living room with just myself is a good feeling. I love love love his songs. I love singing to them. They are the only songs I can sing to coz most of the songs are quite low in tune. It's one reason I'm glad I learned chinese. HAHA. Those non-chinese speaking people dunno what they are missing out on.

They bring back high school memories coz the guy I sat with in high school loves Jay's songs. And I remember he will always sing along to "Qing Tian" when the song was played before school starts. No, I don't have a crush on him. But just listening to Jay, makes me think about this person and then a whole string of high school memories came floating back.

GAH Jay Chow is so talented, who ever knew a teashop guy can be so talented!! He shuts the critics up in so many levels. One of my dreams is to go to his concert and see him in person. But, he never seems to like Melbourne. LOL.

I cannot wait for tmrw. Oh wait. it's tmrw already. LOL. NO wait, I shouldn't say this coz my report is due in less than 24 hrs.