Thinking

Lately, I've been thinking of serving in Worship ministry in OCF.

I've always had this urge to serve in Worship ministry. I've always wanted to serve God through music. I've always had this dream of playing infront of crowds of people. I dunno if its still a dream of mine. But it used to be this way.

Since my old church, God has planted that thought but I didn't do anything about it. Yes. It is a long time ago. Next, it was GB. I was really keen but before I could touch a keyboard, I had to leave. What is the deal with that God?? When I was really keen? there wasn't any opportunity for me.

Then, come Citylife, still, I didn't do anything again. And then last 2 weeks we had a ministry profile in OCF and the Worship ministry was screaming to me but I didn't tick the box. My brother has been asking me about considering signing up to Worship.

But I hesitate.

I keep having second thoughts. TBH, I think I'm quite confident in my capability. I'm just too afraid to go ahead and do it. Last 2 weeks, I was incharge of the PowerPoint for worship and looking at the worship team, I think I was scared because of the people. More like intimidated of their talent and not sure if I can meet up to their standard or equal their standard. I'm used to playing on my own and not with a band thing, or with another instrument like a guitar.

I dunno... But I know once I'm in it, I will be able to get my head around. It's just the first step that is difficult.

What to do? What to do?

I've started practising songs. I found an awesome site with chords to all hillsong songs. But I dunno... I asked myself this, I'm scared to make the first step YET! I'm already practising songs! Isn't it too early??? Should I at least stop myself from going far??? But regardless, I love music, so maybe not.