Year 4

It's been 4 yrs, I've called Australia home. Exactly 4 yrs on Feb 6.

I remember the time I left M'sia, it was very hard. Harder than I thought, leaving a place that has been my home full of childhood and growing up memories. I remember the Perth trip where mum was buying souvenirs for friends and family and I wanted one too but mum said we will be back to Australia anyway, so no need for souveniers. I was really scared coz I really did not want to leave. I cried in class when I told my best friend Lee Nee I was going. We cried together. Even Phet Ling stopped me by suggesting that I stay at her house.

And weird enough, thinking back, I was just about to be quite comfortable in Kuching. Everyone started to like me and respect me, I was friends with everyone. I was just about to go into YL position in GB (which I was very looking forward at that time) and I was going to play piano for GB (which was a dream of my at that time). I also started to be active at church and getting to know all the people in youth. I wasn't ready to leave.

And suddenly, I have to leave. Isit bad timing or what??? Sometimes I ask God that. Why take me away when I have taken so long to establish strong relationships and reconnect with people that once hated me?? Why take me away when I have alot to offer to GB and my church?? But, it wasn't mine to decide. Actually, I decided not to occupy my mind about leaving. I refrain myself from thinking of the pros and cons of leaving because I know at the end of the day I will leave regardless.

I think I' m quieter than before. Others tell me I talk less now. They tell me last time I used to talk non-stop (I didn't even know that I was very talkative last time). But now, every time there's a gathering or meet-up, I don't say anything unless someone ask me a question or I have something important to say. I would just sit there and listen or smile or day dream. HAHA.

So, yeah, here I am 4 yrs later, changed for the better. I am still serving in church, I am still pursuing my accounting dream, I've gained strong friendships, friendships that I didn't have to fight for like back then. I've got stronger mentally and EMOTIONALLY.