The potter and the clay.

Today, I knew I was going to get very emotional at church. I warned myself not to cry on the way to church. As I walked into the auditorium, I was calm and collected. Kerrie Anne Butler was the worship leader for today.

In the middle of the worship session, there was a break and then one of the network pastors, Justin stood up and asked if anyone needed any prayer and asked them to come forward so the leaders could pray for them. I wanted to go up but u know... fear got the better of me. But it did not bother me much.

Then, in the middle of the praying session. A song came up, a song that touched me so deeply in my heart. I don't know the name of the song, but it goes like this.

" I love You Lord, You rescued me, You were all that I want, You're all I need"

The lyrics to this song seriously pulled a string. I closed my eyes, hot tears were coming out as I reflect the past coming week. This week has been quite overwhelming. Since exam period, my heart has not settled one bit, I'm over-worried, over-stressed about the whole situation.

The word "rescued" especially, rescue in past tense, made me realized all the good things God has been doing in my life, all the many blessings He has given me. Giving me awesome people in my life, arms and hands, giving me this degree, all the help and guidance and comfort, a job, all the answered prayers... etc, its just so overwhelming. I realize all this time, I've asked God for this and for that and just today, God opened my eyes to see what an idiot I have become to forget where I've come from and how good God is.

The message was something I needed to hear. It's about God moulding our life. Paul talks about Jeremiah and how he fully trust God. He talked about three points.

1. God works
2. God creates
3. God re-creates

He said God not only create us but he also re-create us. The word "re-create" stood out for me. He did not create us then abandon us but he carefully mould us into something for full value of use. Paul uses the analogy for a potter and clay. The potter symbolises God and we (of course) are the clay. The potter intricately shape and mould the clay to make it pretty to look at, useful for its main purposes be it a flower vase or an ornament. If he fails to make the clay pretty, does the potter throw the clay away and use a new set of clay?? NO. A good potter would use the "failed" clay again and again until he is satisfy with the outcome.

It is same with our God. He not only create us just for the sake of creating, but he re-create us at the same time. I know there may be seasons of life where I would feel neglected, forgotten but today, God reminded me that He's still here and I don't have to worry, that this is the time where God is "re-creating" me. But then why do I not help but feel worried?? I guess its human nature to feel that way.

God is the potter, we're the clay. Thank you Jesus for revealing yourself, for keeping me on track and forever looking out for me. Thank you, I couldn't ask for any better. Amen.