Buzziness

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This week have been super busy. Been so busy that it sucks a lot out of u, my mood has been going up and down, I've been ignoring everybody. No mood to talk to my parents, I blocked out their nagging. No time to catch up with friends. Since I started my new job, I had to change my routine. Work takes a lot out of you. And now I have another extra shift on Mon, which means I'm working 13 hours a week. I also find that I'm so tired after work and basically waste the rest of the day doing nothing but sleep. So, yeah, I've kinda neglected my studies a bit, which is a worry to me.

Also, I've stopped going to lectures and I don't even feel guilty. Lectures are useless and pointless. The lecture slides are post on the net and the lecturer basically read out of the slides so tell me, is it pointless or not. So, instead of wasting two hours in boring lecture theater, not paying attention to anything, I could use the two hours to read and summarize the textbook chapters, as well as finishing the questions in the chapters.

But one thing that I'm proud of is in the midst of all this busyness, I still put out a few minutes to spend some time with God. But sometimes, I feel guilty if I don't attend OCF every Friday ( A Christian Club), I feel very disappointed at myself. But seriously, I am really incapable of fitting another thing in my weekly schedule. I feel so exhausted after a busy week and I just want to come home and rejuvenate. I know that God will understand, but I still feel guilty. I feel selfish, like I'm replacing God with something else. I don't wish to do that, replacing God, but my week is already very packed now. I barely have any "me" time anymore, my day is always around the clock, running here there, doing this and that for other people.

But all this have drawn me closer to God. In all this rush, I find peace in God and I'm growing in confidence facing everyday life.

I'll see how things go.